the throbbing light machine

So, okay, I am no longer quite so blue and fragile, but I am still badly out of touch with fannish squee. Idk why, but all of my post-yuletide writing projects are languishing and I'm not writing and argh. And I think part of it is that I miss being in an active fandom? Where people'll ramble about the sourcetext in a communally squeeful kind of way? So I'm going to ramble and squee about some things, and if you're feeling it squee back mmkay? Also there are picspams, because yay picspams right?

( early seasons of Supernatural )

( Original Star Wars )

( Battlestar Galactica Classic )

Hmm - I seem to being doing classic-style media fandoms at present? Which is funny because between Radclyffe Hall and George Eliot and also rereading stuff from the Brontës' Angria and Gondal games my non-media brain is very girl-centric at present. Maybe that's why I can't write! Anyway, off to watch more pretty boys on my screen - bugger productivity tonight.

( watching: )

( not watching: )

Anything you guys think I really need to pick up?

I've been thinking about my positive reaction to Supernatural last night, in contrast to the middling reactions I've been seeing around. And I guess I just - this show, I don't care about the plot, I really don't. This isn't Buffy, shoot, this isn't Fullmetal Alchemist, this is not that show. I don't really want it to be. I have plenty of smart, challenging fandoms that fully engage my brain, that give me everything that I'm hungry for in the canon.

Supernatural has never been that show. Supernatural is the boy/boy melodrama. ( spoilers for 4.07, ITGPSW, follow )

Oh. My. God. Show.

( are you there, god? )

So I have a final book list for my Gender & Spec Fic course:

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed
Octavia Butler, Parable of the Sower
Marge Piercy, Woman at the Edge of Time
Starhawk, The Fifth Sacred Thing
Tamora Pierce, In The Hand of the Goddess
Ursula K. LeGuin, Tehanu
Margaret Atwood, The Penelopiad
Angela Carter, The Bloody Chamber


Plus stories/essays by Johanna Russ, Kameron Hurley, Carol Clover, Gilbert & Gubar, and a showing of Firefly, plus a handful of blog entries to keep us modern/edgy. O yeah.

Started watching Farscape last night, from the beginning. Man, this show is weird. But then again, Claudia Black is hot like fire.

Is it bad that I'm more excited for House Season Five than I am for Supernatural Four? It's just that House is in this great shiny place with all these possibilities, and Supernatural is stuck in this plotline that I really don't like. All the tropes and relationships and arcs that I really liked have faded away - I want Sammy to keep being the emo little brother with troubling mindpowers, and Dean to keep being the rebellious child-parent with daddy issues who figures his own self-worth through his brother. and the show keeps taking them farther and farther from that.

I've been playing with things all weekend: did a redesign on my journal, updated and cleaned out my font book. I feel restless and twitchy, and I know why. The final draft of my honors thesis is due in three days, and I don't know what more to do with it, but I feel like I should be working. And I'm terrified. I should be cleaning my apartment, or doing other readings, or working on something - any sort of something. But instead I'm doing anxiety avoidance rituals and flailing.

I think maybe I will just let myself flail until Tuesday, and be productive after that. Screw em. I'm tired and menstrual and I just wanna look at pretty fonts and watch Xena.

Speaking of Xena, I'm sure everyone's seen thingswithwings's lovely vid The Glass, but if you haven't, the vid makes wonderful semiotic use of the Xena/Gabby waterfall moment. My brain kind of want to talk about the way that the solid glass (which is, technically, a liquid) works to separate the mainly male slash couples throughout the vid, but when you get to the lesbians the boundaries suddenly become more fluid, penetrable without needing to be broken. But that might just be my brain.

Also, a fic rec: K Hanna Korrossy's From the Darkness, which is utterly perfect SamnDean gen schmoop h/c. Sam's been captured by brutal psychic-testing doctors, and Dean's gotta rescue him. Outsider pov. Serious button-mashing. Delicious.

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This isn't about "Long Distance Caller" so much as it's about the entire third season, but I'mma put it behind a cut anyway. ( Read more... )

This episode is LOVE, I tell you! EPIC EPIC KIND OF GAY LOVE.

( 'Til Johnny's dancing with me/ I've got no reason to smile )

Just because visual links amuse me. I've been watching my way back through seasons one and two of Supernatural, mainly because it's so fun to watch them not being in love with each other and contrast that with their current state of wild codependent passion, and then watch them falling more and more for each other, and yeah I had a point here.

Or not so much as a point as a small amused noise. In IMToD, Sammy looks ridonkulously like ESB-era Luke Skywalker. ( Por exemplo: )

Maybe it's the curling hair at the back of the neck, or the way Sammy's nose looks smaller than it really is from that angle. The Luke caps aren't great, but I swear that each and every time I watch IMToD it makes me smile. Star Wars in truckstop America, indeed.

Sometimes I think my brain is maybe kind of really random. Paper-writing has rendered me useless for everyday life. (Has anyone ever written Star Wars AUs? Because I would totally read that.)