lotesse: (sg1_pilgrim!daniel)
At my sibling's poking I'm trying to pick up SGA - but having exactly the problem that I knew I would, which is that I keep peering around McKay and Shepard for Jack and Daniel. This is why I really wish sequels that centered on new characters would at least skip a generation, so that I wouldn't keep getting distracted by how frustrating it must be for Daniel to not go to Atlantis, what do you mean Daine and Numair got oops pregnant and shotgun married, hey no wait what happened to Aang and Sokka and Toph and why are they dead, et cetera et cetera. I just have a really hard time attaching to new characters when previous BSOs keep popping up to draw my eye. so anyway now I'm looping back to SG1 S1. Someday, maybe, I might make it all the way through "Rising" without getting distracted by the JacknDannyness of it all, but today is not that day.

links of interest: this completely terrifying case where a judge chastised a pregnant woman for absconding with her male partner's fetus; my word of the day, misogynoir, coined by the Crunk Feminist Collective.
lotesse: (lotr_samwise)
Heard a great lecture from Suzanne Keen today - I think I need to my by own copy of her book Empathy and the Novel.

my answers to the ten-questions meme from this weekend, each comprising a nice little babble: Fullmetal Alchemist, SG-1, the Aubreyad, The Dark is Rising, Prydain, Eight Cousins, Star Wars, Downton Abbey, and Westmark.

I am sitting here morbidly avoiding the tab in which I have opened today's Mark Reads - it's the Choices of Master Samwise today, and I can't take this chapter, I can't, just thinking of it makes me start tearing up, I couldn't read this chapter aloud to my little sister when we were kids because it made me cry so hard. I love it so, it's the most beautiful thing that's ever happened to me. And I have the tab open and I keep, like, accidentally switching to it and then covering it up again really quick.


Oh, hell. Now I am crying. God, Samwise, Samwise, Samwise. Further inarticulate muttering and general weeping & gnashing of teeth will continue until morale improves.
lotesse: (shakespeare_tempest)
meme, snagged from [personal profile] astridv:

Name a fandom you know (that you think I know too!) and I'll tell you

1. The first character I first fell in love with
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t
4. The character I love that everyone else hates
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer
6. The character I would totally smooch
7. The character I’d want to be like
8. The character I’d slap
9. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise
lotesse: (trek_changein)
I've been having a lovely wallow in Brecht over the last few days - I volunteered to lead seminar on him this week, because he's where I come from and very dear to me. I very much like his point about the unsure intersection between ethics and sympathy, although I don't always live by it - but it gives me language to talk about what happens to me in fandoms like Iron Man or Stargate, where I fundamentally disagree with the characters on ethical grounds but fall in love with them anyway.

(I just realized, this might be why I watched all the "Jack and Daniel fight" episodes of SG1 this week - because those episodes actually get close to articulating some of the Very Deep Issues I have with the entire premise and mission of the SGC. This is also, nb, why I hold so close to earlier characterizations of Daniel and am troubled by latter ones - because for me there's a big difference between a geeky outsider trying to shift the system and a scientist-collaborator who sells knowledge and intellect to a government for the purpose of making war.)

I don't want to NOT fall in love with them, though. My love affairs with characters like Tony Stark are oddly precious to me. They represent some of the best feelings of my life. And, every now and again, some lovely fanworker will make something like Average Avengers Local Chapter 7 of New York City, and bring love into line with ethics. Brecht knows that to be a passive part of the audience is to open oneself up to being used through one's loves; his solution is to force the audience to participate in the creation of meaning, so that they cannot be victimized, so that they have to be a responsible part of what is made.

I watched Theater of War last night, a gorgeous documentary - available on Netflx Watch Instant! - that follows the Tony Kushner/Meryl Streep production of "Mother Courage and Her Children" in 2008. Seeing clips from that production was lovely, but the documentarians also did amazing things with the model book from the original 40s production. The model book gives a series of stills of the production, sometimes only seconds apart; the documentary put them into a semi-animated slideshow, with the text spoken over, so that you got a real sense of ghosts in motion. Streep has a great line at one point - the interviewer asks her what it is to be an actor - she says that she is the voice of people who have died.

The film's worth it if only for the footage of Brecht's testimony before the House Committee on Un-American Activities. He treats it like a farce. It's beautiful.
lotesse: (httyd_dubious)
An unforseen consequence of falling in love with the Avengers: rereading Stargate fic now gets me picturing Jack O'Neill interacting with a large florid blond chap in a red cape. This also happens with How to Train Your Dragon fic, but I don't entirely mind the idea of Hiccup & Company invoking Marvel!Thor as their god. They would like him.
lotesse: (p&p_letters)
Here's [a meme] where I'll post the working title of a story, and the first sentence, for (some of) my most current WIPs. No pairing or summary info.

A Study in Circles: The Amestrian military keeps doctors as well as dogs on its leashes; having completed my course of medical study at the Second Laboratory in Central, I was bound to service for several years.

my gold signal like a dragonfly: Teal'c tells people, when they ask him, that his inlaid golden serpent tattoo is a mark of his former slavery to false gods.

Neglect me, lose me, only give me leave: “No,” Taran said, pulling away from under Fflewddur's hand.

saffron and haze and Tyrian purple: Arram Draper had left Tyra as a very small boy, taking with him only a dark olive-brown complexion, a head of curling dark hair, and the recollected tastes of cakes flavored with saffron and sesame, and aromatic bread heavy with olive oil on his tongue.

me me:

5 May 2011 10:54 am
lotesse: (miyazaki)
Name me a character from a fandom I have known, and I will tell you:

* How I FEEEEEL about this character
* All the people I ship romantically with this character
* My non-romantic OTP for this character
* My unpopular opinion about this character
* One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon
lotesse: (adipositive_marble)
sorry for the unexpected drop off the face of the planet - I was having the Februaries, and got v. sulky and quiet for a while. But one of my instructors just extended an essay due date, and the sun was out today after the mungy ice-rain, and I'm getting over it, yanno? Because depression is boring and cruddy.

So! I just watched this fucking awesome movie (The Fall, 2006, seriously guys check this one out it's bloody gorgeous and also streaming on Netflix. it's one of those movies where someone tells a story and then the movie cuts to the story and it's all surreal and gorgeous and I seriously don't even know how they got some of those shots, but damn). I showed my brats clips from Singin in the Rain today, and we talked about metatheater, and the lesson was actually fun for once. It's Friday and what the fuck ever I'm gonna make some damn Star Wars icons because have you seen the behind-the-scenes shenanigans on that one?! And maybe even write some fucking porn (is that redundant? that's redundant). Vibrating between Han/Luke and Daniel/Teal'c, though I really want to write about some sexy ladyparts. Why am I not currently watching shows with femslash? And also why can I not get started on Lost Girl fic whywhywhy?!

Also, Egypt! Tunisia! revolution! my hopes are with them in their struggle for great justice!
lotesse: (danieltime)
am trying to find episodes of two different shows, based on moments alone. the google is not helping!

-the episode of Stargate: SG1 where Jack and Daniel have the little rolly ball game - possibly on a teltak/in the midst of imminent peril/in a place that looks kind of Goa'uldy?

-the episode of the Granada Sherlock Holmes where Holmes has a musicgasm at a concert while Watson gazes on adoringly

these ringing any bells?
lotesse: (sg1_pilgrim!daniel)
that such a dirty thing as charcoal can become so incandescent

Stargate SG1, Jack/Daniel, 2,303 words, PG-13. Set late in Season 3. Jack doesn't know how to be the family that Daniel's lost.

Is it not beautiful to think that such a process is going on? )
lotesse: (sg1_pilgrim!daniel)
Does anyone have links/recs to girl!Daniel art - manips or drawings or whatever? I haz a want.
lotesse: (sg1_needy!daniel)

Sam/Daniel, PG, 2,095 words. prompt: I can't carry it, but I can carry you and it as well. Daniel-whumping, scary-alien-artifacts-made-them-make-out. Kinda-sorta a Lord of the Rings fusion – I couldn't resist, with that prompt.

but I can carry you

omg halp

5 Oct 2009 01:08 pm
lotesse: (stargate - a singer must die)
I seem to have signed up for the Stargate rarepair ficathon. Erm.
lotesse: (stargate - a singer must die)
Is it bad that Said's "Orientalism" is mainly making me think about Stargate SG1?
lotesse: (stargate - a singer must die)
Because this one is always fun. Works-in-progress meme: post a few lines from the fic you're working on.


“You remind me of someone,” he said at last, which was partially true – if Darla had ever been a sweet young thing, which Angelus privately doubted, she may have been not unlike this gilded knife of a girl. “What's your name?”

“Rebecca Sharp. Becky. And I shan't ask yours,” she answered pertly. “By your voice you're an Irishman, and by your face you're not low born, but by your voice I should call you quite a wicked personage, for no virtuous man would ever speak so sweetly of buying and selling.”


Jack knew that Daniel needed an anchor. He just didn't know where to find the chain. Sha're possessed links by the score: her lips, her voice, her finger in the sand, the smell of her body. The breathing artifact of her skin, her language straight out of Daniel's work, Daniel's dreams. Egypt had been his home as a child, surrounded by love and care and the dusty remnants of history. Sha're – Abydos – was that home come again.


It was just as well, Angel thought. He didn't really want to see them cover her over with cold earth. He didn't really want to have to remember what it felt like to claw a way through clinging soil, pull yourself up onto the wet grass and feel the demon pawing over your dead heart. He didn't want to have those memories get so close to her, as if their gore might splash her pretty bright clothes, stain her mouth bitten red.


Prospero opened the chest, and it was full of bright and beautiful cloth, and pearls, and small dainty things that shone like jewels. Miranda gave a little gasp and fell to her knees before it, her hands going out to touch and caress the luxurious silks and velvets, the like of which she’d never seen. They were softer than the fur of any creature, cooler than the sea at night. The gowns that she pulled out to their length were heavier than she expected, and longer than she was tall. “Try them on,” her father said. “They belong to you.”

lotesse: (feminism - Buffy)
Because I love the girls and women in my fandoms, and think they're awesome.

spring on horseback like a lady )
lotesse: (jossverse)
watching: )

not watching: )

Anything you guys think I really need to pick up?
lotesse: (stargate - a singer must die)
Okay, there's a line where that sort of thing goes from fun into badficland, but still. It's the girly men that I'm looking for. I fetishize and get off on their youth, their physical smallness, their visible and invisible innocence. Their tendency to use words instead of fists. Their ability to speak the language of emotional need. Their understanding of c retaking, and their own need for the same.

Their receptive sexuality, which basically gives you girl-pov hetsex with two guys.

I know that, objectively speaking, Daniel Jackson is a tall, strong man some five to ten years my senior who can more than take care of himself. But for some reason, I want to read about the side of him that's needful, young, sweet, vulnerable. This is one of those things that has more to do with identification than with sexual preference – so it's not that I'm irl attracted to femmy guys, so much as it's the fact that I'm a cis, femmy woman myself.

I think that what I'm really looking for in slash is some foothold for my gender )
lotesse: (stargate - a singer must die)

01-06 Jack/Daniel
07-25 Daniel
26-27 Daniel/Sha're
28-30 Sam

storytellers who can put an end to stories )
lotesse: (stargate - a singer must die)
Having a sick day today, watching Stargate:SG1 season 7 on telly (which is weird, because I've never had a telly - this one belongs to my auntie, for whom I am housesitting), and having worries. We've watched seasons 1-5 on Hulu now, and I've found Japanese internet sources for the Daniel-relevent bits of season 6 plus "Fallen" plus "Moebius," and I'm trying to figure out where I go from here wrt this fandom.

I was so easy to defeat, I was so easy to control, I didn't even know there was a war )

daughter of the sea, oregano's first cousin


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