lotesse: (afrofuturist)
Late-night hypothesis (i had a hard day i'm not thinking about it): might the weird misdirectedness of "sj shipping" and whatnot be a possible aftereffect of the hardcore fannish embrace of the death of the author?

Instead of accepting all fannish responses while questioning the motives/credentials of directors, movie studios, and various financiers, we seem to be ignoring the latter classes of being almost entirely to instead police fannish response.

I am pretty sure that a substantial chunk of this is "women can be easily made to feel badly about libidinal desires," but also think it's interesting that, after having gloriously launched myself into the arms of Barthes during the Harry Potter years, I now find myself endlessly wanting to remind fellow fen about who gets paid for these stories, who has control, and who exactly doesn't (hint: it's us).
lotesse: (hmmm)
heads up: potential OTW implosion sighted. Andrea Horbinski votes *herself* onto the Board. how lovely for her. MJ MacRae has comments about ethics. hilarious. ffa has deets

eta the whole board has now resigned. wow. what
lotesse: (Default)
from f-fa: here is a link to an 09 podcast interview with Andy Blake, aka thanfiction, aka Victoria Bitter, from back when no one knew he was the same person as VB. His interview segment starts at about 1:33, and beyond the hillarible accent, the most striking thing is his insistence on presenting himself as the newbiest of newbs - looking up "fan fiction" on the net with his bandmates for a lark, never written a thing before, no experience with fiction - when zie had been in media fandom for more than a decade at that point, actively producing fic in Star Trek: Voyager and Due South and Hornblower and Sharpe and LotR.

it's super weird to hear Andy as a voice; I'm used to hir being this disembodied and now largely ghostly presence, the author of works that zie can no longer claim because zie's killed off the associated personas that originally posted them.
lotesse: (narnia)
Abbey/orangeblossom did an AMA over at her journal about VB/Andy/thanfiction over the weekend. All of her retrospective writing on Bit of Earth is fascinating to me - I was there, but on the outside. I interacted with all these people without knowing what was going down in meatspace. Some of the stuff about LotR being real came through, but it seemed like pastiche play at the time, taking Tolkien's mock-editorial stance very faux-seriously. Spoiler alert, it was not.

Abbey left me some of my first ever fic reviews, back when I was just getting started, and I will always think fondly of her for it. But it's such a strange experience to be poking around in the back of an old fandom and recognize one of Andy's pseuds. I wouldn't engage with his work now, but ngl some of the old VoyagerBabe stuff in Due South gets me there, mashes the buttons nicely. idek.
lotesse: (Default)
state of the me: too busy, too stressed. I'm really looking forward to next month, when I'll be out of school (for good! at least for a while) and able to focus on regrouping, recentering, rebuilding. money is bothersome; I'm too paro and anxious to run close to the financial margin for long without getting fretful.

How do you guys talk to people you care about - family chosen or otherwise - about digital support networks? I ask because as a quiet loner people do fuss about me, and I don't feel like I've ever managed to get across just how powerful digital connection can be. I think they see digital networks as a prosthetic, a stand-in for the social life they think I'm too shy or damaged or whatever to seek out. But. I can't even imagine the last decade of my life without internet media fandom and all the wonderful people it's helped me meet and talk to. Mama talks up the benefit of friends who aren't your be-all and end-all, they maybe rub you wrong ways but they're a social group - but I think there's also something intensely marvelous about the way that digital connection seems to short-circuit small talk, the way it plunges you right into the intensest of intimacies.

when I write that here, I'm confident that y'all will feel me. I wish I could figure out how to get normspace folk to do the same.

(I've been consuming media like a mofo in the attempt to conquer my massive piles of grading, so when I am more able to words on the subject I will post about Farscape and Pushing Daisies, both of which are giving me feelings of the most intense and delightful kind. I meant to do that when I opened the entry window but words are apparently feeling slippery.)
lotesse: (sillycat)
One of the things I love about fandom is that double feeling one sometimes gets on reading a fic summary, equal parts "god that is so wrong" and "yasss."
lotesse: (books_dreaming)
Even though I know others have told stories about fandom as a negative space in their life, I've never felt that way about fandom. Any kerfuffle weight I came under was purely my own fault, for intersectionalityfailing, and I appreciate that education. So - I've been doing nostalgia reading in HP fandom, like I said a while back, and remembering why I've always put fandom on my mental map in the place of roses and diamonds. I came across this wonderful ff.n review response (I didn't see the my text, but as I was in high school at the time, I'll lay nickles to knuts that I'd been fussing about how my parents didn't like me spending such a lot of time on the internet):

Dear Mrs. Lotesse;

You may not know me, but I have been writing stories on Fanfiction.Net for some time now. Stories which your daughter, the English Teacher, has been kind enough to consent to review for me.

I can assure you I am of good character and only have a small arrest record, and despite the video tape, my lawyer is still fairly certain he can beat the rap for me.

As an author myself, I can tell you that most of my education as a writer came from my reading of other people's books. I spent large sums of money on this. But somehow it managed to impress itself enough upon my own meager writing skills to help me become a published author.

Therefore, it is with a great deal of sincerity that I would request that you support your daughter's inborn, incessant need to read everything she can get her hands on. And one day, after years of sacrifice on your part for all you had to give up so that she could have books to read, she will proudly come to you one day and show you her first published book. She will then tell you what she was paid, which will promptly have you crying in your tea thinking that she could have had a real job making good money by now.



And I just. Fuck, I fucking love you guys.
lotesse: (books_sapphic)
long & interesting ffa thread on the AO3/OTW

Thing is, as a writer, I don't particularly care about having access to uncurated tags. Especially for things like pairing/character/genre, or even for tropes. I can see the benefit of having an uncurated "other stuff" field, but for everything else I would be perfectly happy to select from a dropdown menu or similar, as on ff.n. I try to tag my own work based on autofills, and try to remain within AO3 style, but it's not easy to do, and I don't know how successful I am even then at creating useful metadata for my fics.

As a reader, right now I feel like I would actively PREFER curated tags; I have fond memories of using the old Automated Archive search engine with various inclusions/exclusions, browsing long lists of generated story-links. And I just - I wonder how much this is a THING for people, or if others share my general attitude of not-caring.

Some polls:

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uncurated character/pairing/?genre tags are

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essential to my creative process
0 (0.0%)

very important to me
13 (24.5%)

not a thing for me one way or the other
15 (28.3%)

not my favorite, but I can deal with them
14 (26.4%)

the cause of the flames on the side of my face
11 (20.8%)

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I want access to SOME FORM of uncurated tagging

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34 (70.8%)

14 (29.2%)

taking this to comments
0 (0.0%)

lotesse: (books_sapphic)
So one of the things I'm finding that I need to do, post-breakup, is rebuild networks of connection. I was very - wrapped around him, is as good a way of putting it as any. (Why it took me so long to give up: it should have been perfect. It should have fit. Anyway.) I'm lonely for people to yap at about fannish stuff! Not formally, as here, but just casual bibble. I've also lost my beta, which is difficult and sadmaking, so I sort of want to work on finding people to write with. Where does this kind of thing take place, anymore? IRC? AIM? Gchat? Gplus? I'm way behind the social media tech curve on this. Where do y'all hang out, apart from here, and how do I get there?

This feels embarrassingly naked, but. Is anyone up for a look at a brace of Tortall/Immortals Quartet ficlets?
lotesse: (btvs_geeklove)
Never done one of these before, but what with ... everything, on top of end-of-semester writing woes, I could really use a boost. My thread on [livejournal.com profile] allthingsgood's lj-based love meme.
lotesse: (books_sapphic)
[personal profile] schemingreader, Writing Fan Fiction: Doing Something or Doing Nothing?: Fandom is weird. It's a great way to meet new people and to reconnect with old friends. There's no better way to meet a lot of goofy intellectual oddballs of the type you want to hang out with all the time. The way you meet them is, you sit in a room by yourself and type while imagining fictional scenarios. Then you sit in a room by yourself and read stories. Then you sit in a room by yourself and type responses and read other people's responses.

Of course, you type "ha ha ha" or "lol" or "I <3 u" a lot.

In essence, it's a way to fall in love with a lot of people who are far away and whom you might meet once or twice if you're really lucky. It's somehow both social and isolating, at the same time.
lotesse: (prydain_eilonwyredgold)
Poll #7180 ladies bigbang!
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Should I write an Eilonwy-centric Taran Wanderer au for [community profile] ladiesbigbang?

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10 (90.9%)

0 (0.0%)

1 (9.1%)

something to be specified in comments
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fic rec

25 Jan 2011 01:38 pm
lotesse: (sarcasm!)
The Birthright, by Bekah. This is a long Pride and Prejudice class-reversal au that's really almost deliciously hyper-romantic. Darcy and Wickham with their positions swapped - so Wickham is the eligible young bachelor and Darcy has the living at Kympton that canon!Wickham chose not to take. Very much Austen as crossed with Eliot - lots of loving descriptions of strong masculine bodies at work, but still fundamentally hopeful of the possibility of true heterosexual love.
lotesse: (trek_ponfarr)
Think of it this way: once ALL of the nonfannish internet sites/structures have betrayed us - kicked fandom off, died, started randomly stripping audio, deleted comms, ect. - and we have, in response, constructed ALL NEW shiny fandom-owned alternatives - then, why then, we shall rule the world.

Ahem. Moving to diigo for now.

eta: what the hell is a diigolet and why will it not respond to click-and-draggage in the way that its parent website says it will?
lotesse: (btvs_womanwarrior)
So I know I'm late on this one, but life has been – well, life. And actually writing things out is hard. But that needlessly sexist Know Your Stereotypical Female Characters flowchart collided with the queer feminist theory I've been trying to get my head around this last month, and here I am. This is totally me thinking through several things simultaneously here, so it might come out garbled – and I'm also transposing queer theory onto an ostensibly feminist critique – but I think I've understood something. But it's all weird and destabilized. Let's see if I can manage to articulate it.

What makes pleasure and amelioration so 'mere'? )
lotesse: (classic)
1. Because I value the emotional freedom fandom has taught me to value my id and the contents thereof.

I love the awareness of my id I've been building in fandom. I look back at my baby fic, and the thing that strikes me most isn't how badly written it is - and it is! - but how tragically unaware that little girl was of what she wanted. My baby stories dance around my id, and sometimes they just miss it altogether, because I had no idea what I was doing. No one had ever talked to me before about the erotic pleasure of (nonsexual as well as sexual) stories. I just knew that some bits of books made me really happy, and I was trying to figure out how to replicate that feeling.

I'm happier for having a name to put to my id. It means I spend less time chasing it, and more time experiencing pleasure. My feminism values women's pleasure pretty highly.

2. Because I love all of your ids, and I love knowing and seeing them.

Even if they're not my own. You read anyone's work for long enough, and you'll end up knowing quite a bit about her. [personal profile] cesare gave the example of narrative emphasis on advanced degrees in a porn story, and that's pretty much exactly what I mean. We're writing to please ourselves here, and if you cross fandoms with somebody you're going to see her reapplying tropes and being attracted to similar stories and yeah, that's going to give you some information about her.

But when I think about the phrase "my id is showing," I think of prowriters who don't know how to approach or harness their ids. There's something very uncomfortable about reading someone's book and both seeing their kinks and knowing that they didn't mean for you to see their kinks. Um. Lots of dudely sff gives me this feeling: Orson Scott Card, (occasionally) Frank Herbert, Stephen Lawhead. It's awkward, because you can tell that they're not doing it on purpose, their ids are just creeping out and they can't get them back in the box. They're not doing anything with that id pleasure, just flailing. In contrast, writers like Tamora Pierce or Baroness Orczy, heck like, Tolkien, who knew how to use the id if ever anyone did - the ones who know what they want and tie the power of their ids to some pretty masterful purposes - I love seeing their ids. Not a problem. Their ids work for my benefit.

And I love seeing fandom's collective ids in particular, because of that thing mentioned above re: women's pleasure. You guys, I think our id vortices are so cool. I think it's so cool that we have language for all this stuff that critical communities don't - woobie? that's our word. Literature's jam-packet with 'em, but academia hasn't been over-arsed to name the phenomenon. I love that we have structures and spaces that let us really get to know our pleasure buttons, and that uncritically celebrate our happy feelings. And, y'know, that whole thing where "good" writing is totally a narrative kink anyway. So.

If your id is showing, it might not gel with my id. I might scroll down or backbutton out. But unless your id is talking about, idk, Indian princesses - Sherlock Holmes kinkmeme, I'm looking at you - I'm not going to have a problem with that. If your kinks are really obvious in your writing, I'm actually pretty likely to think it's cute, and to grin when I see them pop up. I don't feel the need to police either your id or my own.

3. Because I just can't see us resisting all the baggage about ids and good writing bouncing around our culture. [personal profile] telesilla's already been burned. It's inevitably going to be more panopticon than we want it to be, I think.
lotesse: (Bronwe Athan Harthad)
I just had an omg-fandom-is-awesome-nowadays moment - was hungry for new, unread hobbitslash, poked del.ici.ous unfruitfully, and then remembered that we have an archive of our own now, that can be searched! And that contains stuff! And I found new fic, just like I wanted to!

Also, my cat has spent the afternoon sleeping half-in, half-out of a paper bag on my bed; the bag is on the bed, and the cat is spilling out of it, dead to the world. Ridiculous beast.
lotesse: (btvs_sarcastic)
Infinite lulz.
lotesse: (bsg_war)
I've been making The Boy watch through Classic Battlestar Galactica on Hulu with me, and falling in love with the show all over again. I had a thing for it back in high school; somehow it totally feel through the cracks in my fanbrain until now. I've got tiny little hearts love for it. Love that is full of sighs and nerdery. Seriously passionate love.

Apparently, I've got surprising amounts of things to say about this show. Who knew? )
lotesse: (Holmes/Watson)
Ugh. I somehow - don't ask me how - ended up in the Sherlock Holmes section of ff.n, where I found a disturbing quantity of fic marked "bromance." I've never seen that term applied to fanwork before; I earnestly hope to never do so again. Bromance!

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