lotesse: (greenswirl)
More hair than she needs (517 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Anne of Green Gables - L. M. Montgomery, Tangled (2010), The Color Purple - Alice Walker, Star Trek: Voyager, Star Wars Original Trilogy
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Gilbert Blythe/Anne Shirley, Eugene Fitzherbert | Flynn Rider/Rapunzel, Celie/Shug Avery
Characters: Anne Shirley, Gilbert Blythe, Rapunzel (Tangled), Rapunzel's Mother, Shug Avery, Celie (The Color Purple), Kathryn Janeway, Leia Organa, Mon Mothma, Diana Barry
Additional Tags: Hair, Femininity, Self-Determination, Female Character of Color, Canon Lesbian Relationship, Feminist Themes, Drabble Collection, Bechdel Test Pass, 5 Things, Female Friendship

Five female characters who cut their hair, and one who didn't.

lotesse: (kink_laces)
I've been trying to decide if I want to take another crack at [community profile] kink_bingo; on the one hand, I've got an awful lot of wsip piled up right now, and an impetus to complete them might not be a bad thing, but on the other the last time I tried kb I totally froze up and couldn't pull it off. I think it has something to do with the external or imposed nature of the kinks - I don't think I'm the girl who can do that, write a kink just to explore it. Fic, for me, is inevitably rooted in personal response, along the lines of erotic sharing - this idea/story/image lit me up, let me write it out and share it with you and see if it lights you up too. Going looking for the kink is ass-backwards for me. It's related, I think, to the problems I continue to have with prescribed methods of academic reading, with note-taking and end-note-reading and all sorts of other systems that disrupt the affective connection of the reader with the text. I want everything to begin with my own naive libidinal response, to proceed from there. So - well, I think I've kind of just talked myself out of kb this year :(

BUT! even without bingo, I can still do kink. What happens when you give me a Victorianist exam list to read:

With ruches of silk
Anne of Green Gables, Anne/Gilbert, set during Anne of the Island and then after
{Tennyson, poetry, women's education, roleplaying, crossdressing, corsetry, and oral sex}
“If you came dressed as a girl, like the men in the poem, wouldn't you be contributing to the picture instead of disrupting it?” Phil wondered aloud, tone carefully innocent.
1775 words, teen

at the AO3,
or behind the cut )
lotesse: (jossverse)
Fictional boyfriends that I would so totally actually date:

-Sam Gamgee - devoted, steady, and hardworking, with a bonus respect for academic work
-Simon Tam - really, really smart, with guts, wits, and the ability to persist (plus you know he's gotta be whiz with anatomy)
-Gilbert Blythe
-Daniel Jackson - I know his girls have a tendency to end up with snakes in their heads, but he's so worth the risk. Smart, sweet, and the linguist thing really turns my crank.
-James Wilson - he's just so, so, so decent!

Fictional boyfriends that I should never, never even so much as contemplate dating:

-Angel - I'd end up slapping the broodyness irl, plus Angelus eep!
-Edward Elric - just a few too many mommy issues, kthx
-Jim Kirk - I don't think I could ever actually go with a military type. Am peacenik.
-Sirius Black - it's never a good idea to take home the pretty, unstable, sparky ones
-Luke Skywalker - he's just a little bit more suicidal and messed up than I like my men in person
lotesse: (lotr_movie!sam)
Also, hobbits! Oh hobbits. I have read so much hobbitfic over the last few weeks, you have no idea. Too much to do individual recs for, but they're all stacked up in my delicious, over yonder.

I've been trying to puzzle out just why on earth I lurve them with such passing fervor, and I think last night I finally hit on it - they're Victorians who get to go on Quests. Seems obvious, but when I unpack it, I think there's a lot there for me.

I can manage it. I must. )

Oh, hobbits!
lotesse: (sorrow)
I feel like I've got a tiger by the tail, and I've no idea what to do with it. I spent the day wading through Plato's Phaedrus and Judith Butler for my honors thesis - and if any combination could drive a girl mad, it would be that one.

I have applications on the brain, too. I'm so utterly terrified of messing something up. I hate paperwork - I'm awful at it - and I feel like I've got so little help. with undergrad everything was easy, clearly laid out. Still scary, but I didn't feel like I was walking a precipice blindfolded. I can do the work. I want to do the work. But I hate the part where I have to get accepted and get funded first.

I've been sick, was out of it all last evening. Combination of a minor cold and the second round of my Gardasil vaccine, I think, and of chronic exhaustion. I'm always tired, it feels like.

I have to figure out how to take my GREs. I have to travel for them, and I don't have a car. It's going to be at least a two-day deal, and again I just want to take the damn test already. I'm way more worried about the details that I am the actual work.

I've been retreating really heavily into fandom, reading comfort fic and comfort books, Prydain and Westmark and the Dark is Rising books and watching LotR and Star Wars. Listening to Anne of the Island on iTunes. There are so many things that are making my heart so very happy - Supernatural back on the air, all the fic I'm writing for The Boy's as-yet-unpublished novel, Yuletide. But I sometimes feel as if I'll never breathe easy again. The panic is always right there at the back of my throat.

Sorry to be a wet blanket, y'all. I just needed to say it. It's hard for me, sometimes, to drop the facade of okayness and on-top-of-it-ness and admit that I'm kind of drowning.
lotesse: (Anne)
Title: That Sears the Mouth
Pairing: Anne/Diana
Little girls and practice kisses. Not explicit.

pucker'd fruit that sears the mouth )
lotesse: (anne)
Sixteen Anne icons behind the cut (just Anne, Anne/Gilbert, Anne/Diana)


scope for the imagination )

For the taking, with commenting and crediting
lotesse: (anne)
Am triumphant! I found the first "Anne" movie--although, alas, not the second, which has all the really mushy squeeful bits in it--at the library this afternoon. The evening will be spent in revelry. It's all misty and hazy, just perfect for curling up in bed with a beloved story.

Also, GIP. It feels very odd to have a new default icon. I realized when I set this one that I'd never used anything but the "Snow White" icon.

eta: From "Anne of the Island," published around, oh, 1908 I think (am too lazy to look it up exactly): "When I was a girl it wasn't considered lady-like to know anything about Mathematics," said Aunt Jamesina. "But times have changed."

Oh man, L.M.M. Don't make me laugh bitterly. "But times have changed." Ha.


1 Oct 2005 05:50 pm
lotesse: (anne)
Listened to an audiobook of "Anne of Green Gables" last night in a last-ditch attempt to rid myself of insomnia, which it did not do. But oh.my.god. The amount of gay in that story...dear lord, I had no idea. I think that I miss the femmeslash because the Anne/Gilbert love goes so deep.

But now I have two burning desires: to write Anne/Diana, and to watch the films again. They really are the most perfect adaptation in the world.

Is it strange that I find myself loving Anne even more now than I did as a little girl?

Also, why can I not find the Ruth Robbins Earthsea illustrations anywhere online? You remember, the black and white woodcut-style insets at the beginning of the chapters. Am frustrated. Argh.

Off to reread "Anne."


3 Feb 2005 04:35 am
lotesse: (truelove)
Five characters that I had hopeless crushes on as a child:

1. Prince Caspian, The Chronicles of Narnia. The hair, the geekery, the knowledge of boats...he was like me, a child yearning for the old days, except that he actually got them back and was hotter than me.

2. Gilbert Blythe, Anne of Green Gables. So the perfect guy ever. That, and I was totally Anne, so I reckoned he'd like me.

3. Eilonwy, The Prydain Chronicles. Gorgeous, spunky, clever. I should have wanted to be her, but I think that I mainly just wanted to snog her. Not quite sure why ti worked out that way, but it did.

4. Laurie, Little Women. Come on. Who didn't love this guy?!?

5. Ged, A Wizard of Earthsea. Just. He's Ged, man. Dark, tortured, brilliant, silent, passionate...I wanted to fix him and free him and have lots and lots of sex with him.

I have been completely carried off by Palestrina's "Sicut Cervus." Oh my god. This may well be the most beautiful music in all the world. I could live a lifetime listening to it alone.
lotesse: (fairytale queen)
For some reason I have this incredibly longing for my childhood loves. Not people, my books. I want Prydain and Anne and Narnia and the Murrays and all my stories. I think that it might have something to do with the fact that it's snowing, and that I just want to wrap up in a feather blanket and regress for a while. I miss them. I miss how simple the stories were, and how happy. They had their darknesses, of course, but there was this feeling of utter joy at the base of them that never really went away. Reading them wasn't about being consumed. It was about flying. But it wasn't really escapism. Or maybe it was. I was certainly escaping school, but I feel like in reading them I was actually throwing myself into life as opposed to out of it. School wasn't life. School was the little death that brought total oblivion. Books were life, and reading them was living the internal life.

Either way, I miss reading like that. I still read all the time, of course, but things are more complicated in the stories that I find myslef reading now, and that flying-joy-exhilaration-feeling is almost entirely gone.

daughter of the sea, oregano's first cousin


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