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What hast thou found in the spring to follow (6470 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 2/5
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton, Barbara Stanton/OFC
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton, John Rowlands, Owen Davies, Alice Stanton, Roger Stanton, Barbara Stanton, Barnabas Drew (Dark Is Rising), Herne the Hunter
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Fix-It, Arthurian, Reunions
Series: Part 2 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

Whatever affair he was caught up in with Will Stanton, strange young man, both stranger and intimate, possessor of secrets Bran had not known he’d ever had, it was not ended. Something of himself he had left in England; and something of himself he had brought back, too. The name Pendragon: the very sea, frozen and still, seemed to be saying it over to him. Bran was listening, now. He was awake.

Jan. 18th, 2019 07:37 pm
lotesse: (freedom)
The Special Counsel's office breaks their silence for once in a blue moon, but Buzzfeed is pushing back on the pushback and standing by their story? What's going on here? This really doesn't seem like any way to run a democracy. When is something going to give?

(If I stop fussing for a moment, I can actually see today as one of those give-and-take days where it doesn't feel like winning, but suddenly the conversation has moved three bounds ahead -- Joe Biden got roasted for "blurting" support of gay marriage, but then all of a sudden the administration was backing marriage equality and then there was Obergefell. So. Everyone calling for pre-impeachment investigative hearings ect sounds very reasonable at the moment, and last week maybe we weren't there yet.)
lotesse: (afrofuturist)
Wanna say w00t w00t to Buzzfeed for being a stellar example of the Millennial generation, busting norms, telling truths, and maybe making a difference if the adults decide to listen this time.

(seriously, the FYFNYT vs new media angle here looks ... interesting ....)
lotesse: (Default)
I'm doing all right. What I'm doing is all right. I don't need to be afraid. I don't need to be ashamed. It is all right to have tried and failed. It is all right to keep going with the things I want to continue. I am not wronging anyone in the ways that I'm existing (I mean not more than I can help anyway, ethical consumption under late capitalism ect ect).

(just needed some reminders)
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And all the sea were ink (959 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Earthsea - Ursula K. Le Guin
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Tenar (Earthsea), Ogion (Earthsea), Ged (Earthsea)
Additional Tags: Magic, power, learning, Mentors, Transformation, Animal Transformation, Separations
Series: Part 2 of If all the world were apple pie and all the sea were ink
Summary:

She stared into the fire, trying to imagine it, to connect the impetuous boy in Ogion's story with the man she had met in the Undertomb on Atuan. Trying to imagine him slipping loose the bonds of his humanity, abandoning himself in favor of an animal shape, his hawk shape.

lotesse: (sorrow)
What hast thou found in the spring to follow (3510 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 1/5
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton, Barbara Stanton/OFC
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton, John Rowlands, Owen Davies, Alice Stanton, Roger Stanton, Barbara Stanton, Barnabas Drew (Dark Is Rising), Herne the Hunter
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Fix-It, Arthurian, Reunions
Series: Part 2 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

Whatever affair he was caught up in with Will Stanton, strange young man, both stranger and intimate, possessor of secrets Bran had not known he’d ever had, it was not ended. Something of himself he had left in England; and something of himself he had brought back, too. The name Pendragon: the very sea, frozen and still, seemed to be saying it over to him. Bran was listening, now. He was awake.

lotesse: (freedom)
The role of the New York Times in all of this is just so -- this "bombshell report," now, that in fact the FBI was targeting the President, when weeks before the election they fucking published an affirmative headline stating that the FBI was not investigating Trump. Who do these people think they are ?! This stamping of information as legitimate, apparently at random, seems like not at all a good way of doing things.

Jan. 12th, 2019 12:27 am
lotesse: (imagination)
(you guys I'm writing fic again it feels so good. I should go to bed now.)
lotesse: (mask)
If all the world were apple pie (1890 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Earthsea - Ursula K. Le Guin
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Ged/Tenar (Earthsea)
Characters: Ged (Earthsea), Tenar (Earthsea), Therru
Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Dreams and Nightmares, Guilt, Feminist Themes, Baking
Summary:

It was not yet dawn when Ged woke, shaken, in their bed in the house of Ogion. Beside him in their bed Tenar lay sleeping, beautiful bright-shining dragon-wine-in-the-mouth Tenar, but he did not turn to look at her. In his dream, the spectre of Elfarran had had Tenar's face: Tenar's face as it had been when he'd first met her as a girl on Atuan, pale and weighed down with the heavy black inky fall of her hair, and she had wailed as the old gods he'd called up by his hubris had eaten her.

lotesse: (starmap)
What life would be like as one of your ribs (3143 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Battlestar Galactica (1978)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
Relationships: Apollo (BSG 1978)/Starbuck (BSG 1978)
Characters: Apollo (BSG 1978), Starbuck (BSG 1978), Cassiopeia (BSG 1978), Baltar
Additional Tags: UST, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Sex Work, episode: s01e18 Murder on the Rising Star, Partner Betrayal, Two Truths and A Lie
Summary:

Two truths and a lie about “Murder On The Rising Star.”

Jan. 9th, 2019 11:53 am
lotesse: (freedom)
(the president is deranged, oh my god ...)

Short fiction rec: The Good Guy, a story from the author of Cat Person - a brutal takedown of male privilege, depicting how easy it is for white straight men to slide into dehumanization, manipulation, and abuse of women. 1st person male pov.
lotesse: (Default)
Watched Roma with my family over the holiday. It was very beautiful, a very intense and high-detail sensory experience ... other parts, though, felt very inaccessible. I felt like I understood it better when I read that it was based on Cuaron's memories from his childhood, because it very much conveys the caring detachment of children toward their caregivers' griefs. The film loves Cleo, and cares about her, but it's a child and it does not understand; and Cleo, also, seems not to understand. I was somewhat frustrated, by the film's end, that clearer understanding did not come; but it was an obvious artistic choice not to give it, for sure.

I re-read the first half of Parable of the Sower, and then had to take the book back to the library -- and I'm not sure if I'm going to try again to make it through. This is my first return to Butler since I first read her as a college student. She's a figure that I have huge respect for, as a literary giant and a woman of genius. I didn't like PotS in college, because it was just so heavy. I went back to it now very deliberately, because for all that I didn't like it fannishly, as a work of predictive fiction it's continuing to be uncomfortably on point. If anything, my initial problems with the book are magnified -- it's so powerful and well-written and interesting and real, and it just drains away all my hope for human existence, and it gets hard to go on. I'm also not real into the religious angle, and that doesn't help. It makes me see life as so tissue-paper fragile, civilization as such a courtly lie -- and it's not wrong, not wrong at all, but a person can only bear so much looking directly into the sun. Maybe I need to try another starting point w Butler all together?

Jan. 3rd, 2019 03:11 pm
lotesse: (Default)
Teared up watching Nancy Pelosi take her gavel this afternoon. So excited about having her back in the high seat -- go, go, go!
lotesse: (starwars)
-The first was the insight, visible when I was about 25, that it was my sex, and not me, that was hindering my goals. I had started to go a little crazy, not sure why my excellence and dedication was getting me nowhere fast, as the mediocre men around me took it easy and yet (almost) kept pace with me. Structurally, there were two reasons why I wasn't rising. One was that I like the company of women, and societies formed by outsiders, and so my mentors loved me but had no money or power to share with me. The other was that I failed to position myself sufficiently in re: my gender; I do tend at pivotal moments to default to thinking of myself as just human, and I forget that I have to deal with the situation of gender in a more active way. I think I can come across as both over-feminine and very assumptive of male-typed leadership roles; in University I was very much "boxed" as the feminist, and my male faculty had strange and slightly adversarial relationships with my primary archives that they hid behind overtly progressive-sounding language.

-The second was the insight, visible to me only just now, of just how much pressure remains on women to give up their juicy parts, their excitement, their self-exploration, in favor of domestic labor and service to others. Everyone has a different reason, but it all adds up to the same thing: stop having fun and pick up (men's) slack. My now-ex-husband shamed me, once, for writing pornography in fanspace. His reason was that he'd been made uncomfortable, once, in a fannish space on the internet, at a fairly young age. But -- years before that, the boys in our elementary school had been snapping my bra straps. Why is a woman's pleasure, a woman's creativity, a woman's sense of play, so easy to sacrifice? Why does it seem so small and squelchable? My ex needed me to pick up the slack of his life, and tend to his accumulated hoard of stuff, and make him the protagonist of my story; but that made me crazy, in short order. Right now, my feminism is telling me that joyful exploration of the juicy parts of life is essential to living sanely, and it is showing me the forces that want me to forgo that, for their own comfort or profit.

Dec. 30th, 2018 11:26 am
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I need to redesign this journal liek whoa; it was one thing when it was mostly an inactive semi-private feelings-dumping ground, but change is coming, I feel it in the water, I feel it in the earth ... fandom is awake again, and moving. Time to streamline.

eta: she edited! check it out: new journal look!

Dec. 29th, 2018 10:38 pm
lotesse: (Default)
The inclusion of the tiny detail that the automatic doors open too slowly and spoil Tien's dramatic suicide ultimatum is the most brutal distanced look at the foolishness of male exercise of power. The power is real; but so is the ridiculousness, and from her author's vantage point Bujold doesn't let you forget it.

Dec. 29th, 2018 10:29 pm
lotesse: (Default)
I don't even want to ship Peter/Tony ... Spider-man: Homecoming just uses so many Pretty Woman tropes ...

Dec. 22nd, 2018 09:14 am
lotesse: (Default)
Why do people pay no attention at all to the context of quotes!! My dash just threw up a perfectly fine sentence about entropy and human endeavors -- from Camille Paglia. Ughhh.
lotesse: (afrofuturist)
Some interesting brain distractions:

Welcome to Airspace, on the aesthetic homogenization of Instagram and Airbnb and the socioeconomic implications thereof

The newest entry in Abigail Nussbaum's Political History of the Future series, a review of Aminder Dhaliwal's Woman World that gives a great precis of the field of gender and sex equity in current sff.

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