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Hi; here are some vids.

title: hades & persephone
fandom: Labyrinth
music: Anais Mitchell
length: 3:21
summary: Sarah/Jareth mytharc
download: 60.06 mb at sendspace
streaming behind the cut )

title: Bedtime Stories
fandom: due South
music: Madonna
length: 3:22
summary: Fraser-centric, multipairing-with-RayK-endgame, sex/sexuality is hard when you're a perfectionist control freak from the frozen North.
download: 55.45 mb at sendspace
streaming behind the cut )

title: 57821
fandom: Battlestar Galactica 1978
music: Janelle Monae
length: 3:17
summary: show overview vid, Apollo-centric
download: 57.63 mb at sendspace
streaming behind the cut )

title: what's in the brain that ink may character
fandom: multi
music: Hildegard von Bingen and Richard Souther
length: 3:46
summary: imagination visualized
download: 72.49 mb at sendspace
streaming behind the cut )
lotesse: (curioser)
I don't want free college, I want k-12 reform. Students waste years' worth of time in glorified baby pens, and then have to pay out the ear for a bachelor's degree - okay, so how about we try educating them before they turn 18, with the taxpayer-funded free system we've already got? And anyway, how many years of one's life should be held hostage to these kinds of certification mills? I'm all for lifelong learning, but this is ridiculous.
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A very strange day to be writing about William Morris.
lotesse: (afrofuturist)
Politics fandom had at least three season finales running at once today, I stg. Kudos to John Lewis for effectively leveraging the new technology and the old (streaming and social media plus CRM protest tactics); sympathies to families thrown into uncertainty by the threat to DAPA/DACA and also by (what the hell) the apparently-impending Brexit; best wishes to Scotland for that reviving independence movement, and do have fun with Donald Trump while he's visiting, I hear he has really great golf courses, the best, most beautiful golf courses.
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I - here's the thing - my Ex was a self-hating queer man, and he tortured me over it for the better part of a decade.

I'll put the backstory angst behind the cut, I think )

He was brought up Catholic, not Muslim - but from the outside, gotta say, all Abrahamic religions look just about the same. Variations on a theme, like.

Sometimes I feel bad for the nice older poz guy I finally unloaded him on, but mostly I'm so grateful I could kiss the man's feet, because I got out thanks to him.

I am feeling so fucked up about the Orlando shooter, the self-hating Muslim queer man, and his abused girlfriend who dropped him off at the club door. This is where toxic masculinity becomes tragic, and I am strangled by pity and disgust and rage in equal and conflicting measures. These poor self-hating queer men - and the way they can make other people fucking suffer for it.

I don't mean to suggest that any of these things are on the same scale. Mostly I'm just wailing.
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Hi! I'm watching the Fun Home bootleg and Not Dealing. Entering the second half, so expecting the uncontrollable weeping to commence at any moment; the catharsis will be welcome tbh. How bout alla y'all?

(I told my therapist today - it's like it started at "oh no," descended to "oh no," and now we've reached "oh god oh god" levels of no-ness with the revelation that the shooter was a club regular himself. 50 club-goers dead, not 49.)
lotesse: (imagination)
For the first time in my life, I really believe in this moment that I will live to see a female president. I never knew it would feel this important. I don't think I thought it would ever really happen.
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wait Donald Trump's name is "don john"? lol that's ... apt ...
lotesse: (glamazon)
-the leadup to Welsh devolution in the 1990s

-the Soho, London art scene in 1989

-death-related fantasy and YA from the mid-90s

(first two for fic, last one for work)

(tbh i like the idea of making Will and Bran make out someplace where I've already written Holmes and Watson fucking, the continuity is nice)


20 May 2016 12:32 pm
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honestly I'm in terrible shape today. I shouldn't be - work's been going really well, until September I'm going to be writing essays about literature and the supernatural, which is amazing - I've got an Andersen story this week, Garth Nix's Sabriel (!) for next - and ever since the weather turned the afterschool childcare work I've been doing has gone from kinda heavy to just delightful -

but I also can't stop crying, and i had an awful punitive dream last night - I wonder if the reason why I hate Dickens so much is that my superego can be distressingly Dickensian, all "let me show you visions of that thing you want so that you can see how you would fuck it up to the harm of innocents." shit. and everything is rubbing me the wrong way; my head aches, my heart aches, my eyes ache. Yesterday morning I heard the mom who lives in the other part of my house spanking her little girl, and the poor baby was crying, and I just about hyperventilated out of my skin.
lotesse: (imagination)
this afternoon I did my taxes; wept; saw a large dead raptor of brown-gold color by the side of the highway; an ill omen
lotesse: (starwars)
There's a strangely suspended quality to my interaction with post-TFA Star Wars fandom. Like - I appreciate Adam Driver's faaace right after Kylo Ren finishes his patricide, in an aesthetical sort of way, but I don't connect the father he's killed at all to Han Solo. Because I really can't figure out how Han Solo would be in that position, or Luke, or Leia. It's like - in my head, Kylo is killing this very abstract idea of "The Father," because there's a big Somebody Else's Problem field covering over Han's face and obscuring the specificity of his identity.
lotesse: (glamazon)
Listening to Bernie Sanders calling Hillary Clinton "unqualified" to be President is - like absorbing a body blow. Wow. How many times - how many men - to me, personally, to my face, like this is to hers -

I'm reminded of Twisty Faster's old IBTP tag, "men hate you."
lotesse: (freedom)
In re: US Dem primary politics -

look, I'd like to reform campaign finance every bit as much as the next girl - but through policy changes that hold everyone accountable, for fuck's sake, not through weird purity-politics critiques of successful current left fundraising tactics!
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i am in hell: there's a cold, hungry cat outside, and it's cold and windy, and i only have the one room so i really can't let it in. my cats would freak. they freaked about my even feeding it, the mama cat especially. she's like, i know you you soft touch, this is how i got to know you in the first place. shit shit shit. i had to hiss it away from my door, it was stressing her out too much, and i don't have any help to give it anyway. it's gone next door, and is having a yowl-off with the neighbors' cat. i hope someone else on the block can let it in, poor thing, it was awfully nice and friendly
lotesse: (freedom)
A Reason Why I Am Not Happy With Bernie Sanders Today:

Planned Parenthood is not "the establishment," and you can't pass off not getting their endorsement as "mainstream doesn;t get it." PP's proven value to progressive causes weighs more than any political candidacy, sorry. You're not going to get anywhere with the feminist left by dissing on PP neither.
lotesse: (starwars)
If Donald Trump's weird campaign song is, in fact, the work of the person responsible for Rebecca Black's "Friday," Milly's excellent 2011 Club Vivid Brazil vid set to the aforementioned becomes even more fantastically layered and hilarious
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Looking back through my fic over the years - wow, that bit from Tolkien about eucatastrophe - "he waukened then and turned to her" - must've really struck a chord with me, cuz I stg i run some form of it in everything I write.
lotesse: (starwars)
people who have read TFA tie-in materials: do we get any indications about which of the OT secrets have been told, and to whom? Mostly, I'd like to know a. who knows that Luke and Leia are sibs, and b. who knows that they're the children of Darth Vader. Am attempting fic; need to know these sorts of things, and the film itself is completely silent on both subjects.

daughter of the sea, oregano's first cousin


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