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Aug. 13th, 2024 03:00 pmno subject
Jul. 16th, 2024 09:51 pm/lady who has an infant squirrel (too small to be on his own, blown down in the storm, worrisome) on a heat pack in her garage and seven foster kittens (getting so big! doing so well!) in the spare room
eta: baby squirrel successfully delivered to wildlife rehab, phew. The rehabber thought he had a good chance <3
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Jul. 10th, 2024 01:12 pmBut there's not been enough noise, imo, in SFF spaces about the sexual assault allegations that are coming out against him. Unfortunate that it's been leveraged in the anti-trans wars, but Gaiman did some really fucked-up stuff, damn. manipulative crap that fucks you up deep. taking advantage of fawn responses, creating crazy-making circumstances.
Gnarly-ass rapist.
I believe his victims and don't respect his bullshit responses.
Chapters: 11/11
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Edmund Pevensie, Eustace Scrubb, Drinian (Narnia), Bern (Narnia), Aslan (Narnia), Ramandu’s Daughter | Liliandil
Additional Tags: Canon Rewrite, Aged-Up Character(s), Sailing, Romance, Eventual Romance, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Royalty, POV Multiple, Teen Romance, Self-Doubt, Book/Movie: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Prophecy
Series: Part 2 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:
The spirit that had awoken in her in was, Lucy knew, part of her former life, her life before she’d gone back to being a schoolgirl again. Not stuck visiting family, or bored and dreaming during lessons, but striking out with knife, claws, and faith for freedom, for justice, for her people, for what was right.
Coming back to Narnia meant taking on a mantle of majesty. She felt, not old, not young, but the Queen again.
Chapters: 10/11
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Edmund Pevensie, Eustace Scrubb, Drinian (Narnia), Bern (Narnia), Aslan (Narnia), Ramandu’s Daughter | Liliandil
Additional Tags: Canon Rewrite, Aged-Up Character(s), Sailing, Romance, Eventual Romance, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Royalty, POV Multiple, Teen Romance, Self-Doubt, Book/Movie: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Prophecy
Series: Part 2 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:
The spirit that had awoken in her in was, Lucy knew, part of her former life, her life before she’d gone back to being a schoolgirl again. Not stuck visiting family, or bored and dreaming during lessons, but striking out with knife, claws, and faith for freedom, for justice, for her people, for what was right.
Coming back to Narnia meant taking on a mantle of majesty. She felt, not old, not young, but the Queen again.
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May. 13th, 2024 12:14 pmWe had an area with a big decaying hardwood tree stump in the side yard, and, earlier this spring, I realized that it was almost entirely rotted away, leaving a bit of a sunken area. So I dug it out properly, filled in it with old twigs and then covered with good garden soil, ringed the new garden with fieldstone, and planted some wildflowers (violet, lupine, queen anne's lace, cosmos, & late iris bulbs from the grocery checkout).
The snakes *love* it. They seem to have a house under the earth of the garden that i see them descending into, and they bask on the stones and in the dark soil. We've always had a few incidental garter snakes, but since I built the little dead tree garden, the population has definitely increased. The snakes seem to head for the dead tree garden, preferentially, when disrupted.
I'm having to be very careful and polite when mowing the lawn! Delightful problem to have.
Yesterday, as if in reward, they left me two intact shed snakeskins, like long ghostly ribbons.
Chapters: 9/10
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Edmund Pevensie, Eustace Scrubb, Drinian (Narnia), Bern (Narnia), Aslan (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Canon Rewrite, Aged-Up Character(s), Sailing, Romance, Eventual Romance, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Royalty, POV Multiple, Teen Romance, Self-Doubt, Book/Movie: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Prophecy
Series: Part 2 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:
The spirit that had awoken in her in was, Lucy knew, part of her former life, her life before she’d gone back to being a schoolgirl again. Not stuck visiting family, or bored and dreaming during lessons, but striking out with knife, claws, and faith for freedom, for justice, for her people, for what was right.
Coming back to Narnia meant taking on a mantle of majesty. She felt, not old, not young, but the Queen again.
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Apr. 30th, 2024 09:56 amAh. That would explain it!
We finished the pilot, and I'll watch more. The lass from Derry Girls isn't quite as breathtaking as Suranne Jones, but I like the way that both properties basically hang their hat on the tremendous charisma of a gnc woman, and don't fuss too much about much else.
linkspam: empathy, self-worth, Dworkin
Apr. 28th, 2024 11:06 pm(I did research on this sort of thing, once. I appreciate the boldness of Tan's tone and approach; got some good swagger)
On Self-Respect by Joan Didion: "Although to be driven back upon oneself is an uneasy affair at best, rather like trying to cross a border with borrowed credentials, it seems to me now the one condition necessary to the beginnings of real self-respect. Most of our platitudes notwithstanding, self-deception remains the most difficult deception. The charms that work on others count for nothing in that devastatingly well-lit back alley where one keeps assignations with oneself: no winning smiles will do here, no prettily drawn lists of good intentions."
(a rather hard piece, but one I found bracing, in a moment when I needed bucking up)
Hostile to Female Status Altogether: Reading "Intercourse" With Gender Dysphoria by Jude Doyle: "Though she's rarely given credit for it, Andrea Dworkin was one of the great horror writers of the twentieth century."
(this essay spoke to me; I've loved Dworkin's glorious militant language and anger, the sweep and exhortation of her rhetoric, while struggling with her politics and the rotten legacy seen in the terfs. It was interesting to hear from another person who responded, as a youth, to Dwork's prose, and I like the reparative attitude of taking what you can use from sites and sources that may be, are likely to be, impure or problematic)
Chapters: 8/10
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Edmund Pevensie, Eustace Scrubb, Drinian (Narnia), Bern (Narnia), Aslan (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Canon Rewrite, Aged-Up Character(s), Sailing, Romance, Eventual Romance, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Royalty, POV Multiple, Teen Romance, Self-Doubt, Book/Movie: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Prophecy
Series: Part 2 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:
The spirit that had awoken in her in was, Lucy knew, part of her former life, her life before she’d gone back to being a schoolgirl again. Not stuck visiting family, or bored and dreaming during lessons, but striking out with knife, claws, and faith for freedom, for justice, for her people, for what was right.
Coming back to Narnia meant taking on a mantle of majesty. She felt, not old, not young, but the Queen again.
recent reading: James Tiptree, JR
Apr. 18th, 2024 01:01 pmI read Julie Phillips' magisterial biography "James Tiptree, Jr.: The Double Life of Alice B. Sheldon," and also worked my way more methodically than I had before through the stories collected in "Her Smoke Rose Up Forever."
The biography presented a portrait of a non-neurotypical woman of unfocused genius I feel like I've known, and been. Raised by wealthy liberal Chicagoans who moonlighted as African explorers, Alli had an epic childhood. Only through sliding with deliberate nonchalance into pseudonymity could she seem to convey the intense art that was in her.
I first became aware of Tiptree through LeGuin's published encomiums, and there's a real treat to be found in the Phillips bio of vital, playful correspondence between early SF figures like Tiptree, LeGuin, Harlan Ellison, and Joanna Russ. Tiptree's inability to connect fully with Russ, separated by pseudonymity, gender pretense, and that thing that afflicts early movement pioneers and makes them unable to connect with the full movements that come after, is poignant.
And then the stories are so very intense. Tiptree circles around biology, love, death, inspiration, and the call of the wild, often ending with gut-punches that make you need to put the book down. I've been a fan of "The Girl Who Was Plugged In" (1973) since I first read it years ago, but, of all the stories collected in this anthology, "And I Have Come upon This Place by Lost Ways" (1972) has sat with me most vividly: a portrait of an inspired scientist believing, past all safety and sanity, in the knowledge that their culture does not value or validate.
It's not a happy story, but the ending rings with strange triumph; and that strange, Pyrrhic victory sits at the core of so much of Tiptree's works, perhaps most starkly in the vore bug horror/romance "Love Is the Plan the Plan Is Death" (1973). The expansiveness of Tiptree's ethical and aesthetic vision, the way her stories can contain love, predation, death, rebirth, and beyond, stretching but not breaking, helped me cope with the shifting territory of my own family group, and made the ways that loved ones fight against one another comprehensible, maybe even palatable.
The unravelling at the end of Alli's life is something, the drama getting real. A strange thing, that this person who chose suicide so many years before actually going through with it, still tragically early, and annihilated her partner as she went, tells the insights that make tough times bearable for others. But perhaps it is often so.
What I took from my engagement with Tiptree, beyond the stabilization through personal changes, was a renewed dedication to my art persona, my art community, and making what I can/do make. Tiptree's stories are, imo, impossibly valuable, and they were such a struggle to get out; every time Alli tried to "go legit," she clammed up, or made sentimental things that belied the wild true insight of her creative gifts. It was only when she let herself create for the heck of it, working through her pseudonym, that the stream of her art seemed to flow clear.
My own mother had been pushing me, over the holidays, as she often does, to "go legit," and spending time thinking about Tiptree steered me in another direction: doubling down on doing my weird shit with the people what I do it with. & the early SFF fandom energy in Tiptree's correspondence reminded me so much of my own roots in journal fandom. "Let us not desert one another ... our productions have afforded more extensive and unaffected pleasure than those of any other literary corporation in the world," indeed.
Chapters: 7/10
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Edmund Pevensie, Eustace Scrubb, Drinian (Narnia), Bern (Narnia), Coriakin (Narnia), Aslan (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Canon Rewrite, Aged-Up Character(s), Sailing, Romance, Eventual Romance, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Royalty, POV Multiple, Teen Romance
Series: Part 2 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:
The spirit that had awoken in her in was, Lucy knew, part of her former life, her life before she’d gone back to being a schoolgirl again. Not stuck visiting family, or bored and dreaming during lessons, but striking out with knife, claws, and faith for freedom, for justice, for her people, for what was right.
Coming back to Narnia meant taking on a mantle of majesty. She felt, not old, not young, but the Queen again.
Chapters: 6/10
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Edmund Pevensie, Eustace Scrubb, Drinian (Narnia), Bern (Narnia), Coriakin (Narnia), Aslan (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Canon Rewrite, Aged-Up Character(s), Sailing, Romance, Eventual Romance, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Royalty, POV Multiple, Teen Romance
Series: Part 2 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:
The spirit that had awoken in her in was, Lucy knew, part of her former life, her life before she’d gone back to being a schoolgirl again. Not stuck visiting family, or bored and dreaming during lessons, but striking out with knife, claws, and faith for freedom, for justice, for her people, for what was right.
Coming back to Narnia meant taking on a mantle of majesty. She felt, not old, not young, but the Queen again.
recent reading: LOTE by Shola Reinhold
Mar. 31st, 2024 09:13 pmThis book is tremendously unique, but also nestles into traditions and histories where I feel at home. Reading it was an infusion of a different perspective, and a mirror held up to my own face. Reinhold's first novel, it strikes fresh notes with old tools.
There are two ways that reading this novel pierced me. The first, and more thematic and broad, is in its valuation and celebration of what it calls "fixations"; what I've been thinking of, since I read Elizabeth Freeman, as erotohistoriography, the desire to fuck the past, the life-defining erotic relationship of student to subject, reading to author. The main characters are people obsessed with historical figures, obscure artists and scene figures, and their lives are structured around these obsessions in a way that the book never mocks or minimizes. It's what these people are, and they're shown as elevated by the engagement.
Perhaps more narrowly, the particular fixations of this book are my own sort of fixation, Virginia Woolf contemporaries who are divinities of bohemian Modernism. Reinhold focuses on Black figures, part of a deep decolonialism, and also intersectionally shows the alliances between Black and queer modernist scenesters. The interaction with the past has strong historicity, often venturing into conreality academia with full faithfulness to academese and project politics.
And then there's the delightful, odd, detached, wandering characteristic of the narrative, the text of LOTE, itself. It takes so long to get a clear picture of what you're reading, where it's all going, but the vibes are crystalline and impeccable from page one. Frequently, the portrayals of cons, MBA types, and various normcore marks are hilarous. The heroine's co-fixationists are luminous. I haven't read the word "nacre" so many times in the same book, perhaps, ever. Utter aesthetic delight.
Strongly recommended if you've built your life around obscure texts or figures, especially old or grand or undervalued ones. One feels deeply seen. It feels important to practice your own worship, your private fandom, your transformative daydreaming. I wonder if Reinhold has an AO3.