throbbing light machine

lotesse @ 2026-04-10T12:16:00

2026-04-10T17:16:23Z

so it turns out my dad's not going to come back if I do all the grieving steps just right

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fic: The sort of beauty that's called human (Will/Bran, G for now, 5/?)

2026-04-10T03:24:57Z

The sort of beauty that's called human (5727 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 5/?
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton (Dark is Rising), Owen Davies, Herne the Hunter (Dark is Rising)
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Loss of Parent(s), Immortality
Series: Part 4 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

“We have to go,” Bran said, his voice coming out hoarser than he’d expected. “Rhys called. Trouble with my da. A stroke.”

No more needed to be said aloud. They were going back to Wales.

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fic: Not time’s fool, Narnia, Caspian/Lucy, 8/?

2026-04-10T02:51:46Z

Not time’s fool (13040 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 8/?
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Ramandu's Daughter | Liliandil, Edmund Pevensie, Peter Pevensie, Polly Plummer, Digory Kirke, Eustace Scrubb, Lord Rhoop (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Romance, Sailing, Prophecy
Series: Part 3 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:

By remaining in Narnia, and not going home again, Lucy had purposefully thrown herself in the path of fate, making herself the obstacle to derail the terrible train of events from its determined track, which had the prophesied end of all Narnia at its end, and her own premature death in a ruined railway carriage. She wasn’t going to let that happen. She had made of herself a lodestone, pulling fate out of its accustomed course. Inevitably, she would leave change in her wake. She meant it to be so, for the preservation of all.

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lotesse @ 2026-02-06T10:45:00

2026-02-06T16:45:06Z

If there was ever any doubt that the US Republican party are racists, let it end now.

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lotesse @ 2025-12-04T16:23:00

2025-12-04T22:23:13Z

Reading Ngũgĩ wa Thiong'o's The Wizard of the Crow; absolutely wild parallels to current events here, on the daily. Despotism as the ultimate theater of the absurd: all of these petty men running around to shiv each other and cover their own asses, twisting language and logic and meaning up in absolute knots because what are words but a means to power?

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lotesse @ 2025-12-02T09:11:00

2025-12-02T15:11:27Z

ngl it's been fun that the snow set in hard this year as soon as December was on the horizon

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fic: Not time’s fool, Narnia, Caspian/Lucy, 7/?

2025-11-12T16:30:30Z

Not time’s fool (11224 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 7/?
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Ramandu's Daughter | Liliandil, Edmund Pevensie, Peter Pevensie, Polly Plummer, Digory Kirke, Eustace Scrubb, Lord Rhoop (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Romance, Sailing, Prophecy
Series: Part 3 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:

“You see,” Edmund began, and all leaned in, visibly listening, “it wasn’t just romance that kept Lucy in Narnia. She is with Caspian, now, but she also had a – a vision isn’t quite right. She was shown a prophetic image in a magical book, and Aslan vouched, later, personally, for its truth. She acted as she did to attempt to divert what she saw, and I think we’d better do likewise, on our end. Here’s what you all need to know.”

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fic: The sort of beauty that's called human (Will/Bran, G for now, 4/?)

2025-08-22T19:05:25Z

The sort of beauty that's called human (4705 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 4/?
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton (Dark is Rising), Owen Davies, Herne the Hunter (Dark is Rising)
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Loss of Parent(s), Immortality
Series: Part 4 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

“We have to go,” Bran said, his voice coming out hoarser than he’d expected. “Rhys called. Trouble with my da. A stroke.”

No more needed to be said aloud. They were going back to Wales.

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lotesse @ 2025-08-13T11:40:00

2025-08-13T16:40:36Z

on the one hand, feels very important to write & share writing; on the other, intense need to not be perceived!

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fic: The sort of beauty that's called human (Will/Bran, G for now, 3/?)

2025-07-31T20:14:55Z

The sort of beauty that's called human (3321 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 3/?
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton (Dark is Rising), Owen Davies, Herne the Hunter (Dark is Rising)
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Loss of Parent(s), Immortality
Series: Part 4 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

“We have to go,” Bran said, his voice coming out hoarser than he’d expected. “Rhys called. Trouble with my da. A stroke.”

No more needed to be said aloud. They were going back to Wales.

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fic: Not time’s fool, Narnia, Caspian/Lucy, 6/?

2025-07-24T21:00:04Z

Not time’s fool (9611 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 6/?
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Ramandu's Daughter | Liliandil, Edmund Pevensie, Peter Pevensie, Polly Plummer, Digory Kirke, Eustace Scrubb, Lord Rhoop (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Romance, Sailing, Prophecy
Series: Part 3 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:

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linkspam: feminist exhaustion, working at ICE

2025-07-24T16:23:56Z

The Great Feminist Exhaustion from Anne Helen Petersen's Culture Study (and comments) : "feminist exhaustion, which applies to the generations of women who understand their progressive, aspirationally intersectional, progressive world view as feminist … and find themselves utterly demoralized by a long, damaging fight that now seems to have lost ground."

Two Days Talking to People Looking for Jobs at ICE by Yanis Varoufuckice:"Naturally there were a large number of law enforcement types hanging around the convention—men with military fades, moisture-wicking shirts, and tattoos of the bible and the constitution and eagles and flags distended across their arms. But there were also a handful of women ICE applicants and a lot of men of color. The deportation officer applicant pool was, I felt, shockingly diverse—one might say it looked like America. The whole place looked and felt like America."

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fic: The sort of beauty that's called human (Will/Bran, G for now, 2/?)

2025-07-23T20:40:53Z

The sort of beauty that's called human (1927 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 2/?
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton (Dark is Rising), Owen Davies, Herne the Hunter (Dark is Rising)
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Loss of Parent(s), Immortality
Series: Part 4 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

“We have to go,” Bran said, his voice coming out hoarser than he’d expected. “Rhys called. Trouble with my da. A stroke.”

No more needed to be said aloud. They were going back to Wales.

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fic: The sort of beauty that's called human (Will/Bran, G for now)

2025-07-17T02:43:58Z

The sort of beauty that's called human (873 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies, Will Stanton (Dark is Rising), Owen Davies, Herne the Hunter (Dark is Rising)
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Loss of Parent(s), Immortality
Series: Part 4 of Wherein was bound a child
Summary:

“We have to go,” Bran said, his voice coming out hoarser than he’d expected. “Rhys called. Trouble with my da. A stroke.”

No more needed to be said aloud. They were going back to Wales.

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fic: Not time’s fool, Narnia, Caspian/Lucy, 5/?

2025-07-17T02:33:45Z

Not time’s fool (8098 words) by lotesse
Chapters: 5/?
Fandom: Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Caspian/Lucy Pevensie
Characters: Lucy Pevensie, Caspian (Narnia), Ramandu's Daughter | Liliandil, Edmund Pevensie, Peter Pevensie, Polly Plummer, Digory Kirke, Eustace Scrubb, Lord Rhoop (Narnia)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Romance, Sailing, Prophecy
Series: Part 3 of An ever-fixèd mark
Summary:

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lotesse @ 2025-07-03T11:21:00

2025-07-03T16:21:14Z

Alas that stress also means need for dentist. I think the filling repair my dentist did last month already broke; it might not be the only bit of my dentistry crumbling under the current tension levels. And going to the dentist is so painful and scary :(

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lotesse @ 2025-06-18T14:12:00

2025-06-18T19:12:18Z

going home this weekend for dad's memorial

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lotesse @ 2025-05-19T20:57:00

2025-05-20T01:57:55Z

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lotesse @ 2025-05-16T00:39:00

2025-05-16T05:39:38Z

( family member loss )

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lotesse @ 2025-05-12T11:09:00

2025-05-12T16:09:20Z

state of the me update; medical details behind the cut

( Read more... )

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lotesse @ 2025-04-27T17:27:00

2025-04-27T22:27:02Z

Why did I bring Persuasion with me on this trip? Oh yes -- ( extended quote behind the cut )

But dad is still getting better, slowly, and that means it's bearable.

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lotesse @ 2025-04-26T11:53:00

2025-04-26T16:53:30Z

( family health adventures )

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linkspam: women in sports, the ugly aesthetic of MAGA fash

2025-03-27T01:58:04Z

Women’s Sports Happened By Accident, And Could Be Taken Apart On Purposeby Diana Moskovitz: "I think one of the best characterizations I’ve heard about Title IX is that it’s sort of like the guillotine out in the courtyard," Susan Ware, author of the book Title IX: A Brief History with Documents, told the Harvard Gazette in 2022. "It has an impact just because of its existence that is different from having complaints filed against the school and threatening to withdraw funds."

From "Mar-a-Lago face" to uncanny AI art: MAGA loves ugly in submission to Trump by Amanda Marcotte: Fascism, especially the 21st-century version practiced by the MAGA movement, is at war with reality. The hyperreality of the MAGA aesthetic is about power. Unable to create good or beautiful things, they express dominance by turning everything ugly. Journalist Kat Tenbarge argued Sunday on Bluesky that "looking 'better' is often not the point" of extreme plastic surgery. Instead, "It’s about looking different, looking strange, because it causes people to pay more attention."

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lotesse @ 2025-03-24T17:01:00

2025-03-24T22:01:26Z

( just some diary natter )

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linkspam: trans women in sports, the decay of social trust under oligarchy

2025-03-07T20:18:46Z

Protection Racket: The Right Wing wants women injured and miserable by Karen: "trans women don’t threaten cis women anywhere but in conservative fundraising letters. Conservatives ginned up this threat because they need women to believe we’re in all ways inferior to men. Conservatives are biological essentialists. We are nothing but our chromosomes."

Russia: Life After Trust By Michael Idov: "On one of my first reporting trips to Vladmir Putin’s Russia — of which there’d be so many that they’d blend into residence — my friend Alex and I got stuck in Moscow traffic a few cars ahead of an EMT van. The siren wailed, the lights whirled, but no one would budge: The ambulance crawled along at the same pace as the rest of us. When I noted this, Alex scoffed. Everyone knows that ambulance drivers make money on the side selling VIP airport rides, he said. Who knows who’s in that van right now? Fuck ’em."

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