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[lotesse]

I hate the world today.



I'm probably pmsing. It's the right time of the month for it. I have a terrible headache and I feel stressed and teary, and I'm really retaining water weight this cycle so I feel fat and worthless and unattractive. I know I'm not. I know. It's just all being a bit much today.

We're skipping Christmas this year and going to Mexico. Which I should be excited about, but I'm not. I don't want to miss Christmas, and I hate hate hate packing, and I have to go buy a new bathing suit and that's really not helping with the body issues. And it means spending a week and a half out of contact with my boyfriend. I'm already off-kilter from not living with him for the past month. I just ... my family can get intense. I love them, but they're intense. He balances me out, gives me permission to not judge myself. These breaks are always so hard. Worse for him, because of family issues, but god above I'm so ready to go home now.

It feels wrong to be this grinchy when the sun's out.

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[shiinabambi.livejournal.com]

Boy, you have sucky PMS. I get the fun PMS where I bitch everyone out, and ride it like a goddess.

God, you have NO IDEA how jealous I am of you skipping this fucking retarded holiday and going to sexyfino Mexico.

As for bathingsuits, I am fond of the men's trunks/sexeh bikini top combination myself. I like my ass, I just don't like sticking it in everyone's face. It's none of their goddamn business.

[lotesse]

I'm just going for a black sports onepiece. This is not about sex appeal, I repeat, not about sex appeal.

I want your pms. Jealous now.

[lotesse]

Oh my God, babe, I saw Gounod's "Romeo Et Juliette" simulcast from the New York Met at the State Theater yesterday. Mmmph. Most sexy set I've ever seen. Absolutely gorgeous.

[rose-sous-globe.livejournal.com]

I love that opera. :) I love Juliette's aria, "Je veux vivre." I studied it a while ago. It's as difficult as heck. Probably more difficult.

[lotesse]

I can believe it.