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Dec. 16th, 2007 12:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lotesseI hate the world today.
I'm probably pmsing. It's the right time of the month for it. I have a terrible headache and I feel stressed and teary, and I'm really retaining water weight this cycle so I feel fat and worthless and unattractive. I know I'm not. I know. It's just all being a bit much today.
We're skipping Christmas this year and going to Mexico. Which I should be excited about, but I'm not. I don't want to miss Christmas, and I hate hate hate packing, and I have to go buy a new bathing suit and that's really not helping with the body issues. And it means spending a week and a half out of contact with my boyfriend. I'm already off-kilter from not living with him for the past month. I just ... my family can get intense. I love them, but they're intense. He balances me out, gives me permission to not judge myself. These breaks are always so hard. Worse for him, because of family issues, but god above I'm so ready to go home now.
It feels wrong to be this grinchy when the sun's out.
I'm probably pmsing. It's the right time of the month for it. I have a terrible headache and I feel stressed and teary, and I'm really retaining water weight this cycle so I feel fat and worthless and unattractive. I know I'm not. I know. It's just all being a bit much today.
We're skipping Christmas this year and going to Mexico. Which I should be excited about, but I'm not. I don't want to miss Christmas, and I hate hate hate packing, and I have to go buy a new bathing suit and that's really not helping with the body issues. And it means spending a week and a half out of contact with my boyfriend. I'm already off-kilter from not living with him for the past month. I just ... my family can get intense. I love them, but they're intense. He balances me out, gives me permission to not judge myself. These breaks are always so hard. Worse for him, because of family issues, but god above I'm so ready to go home now.
It feels wrong to be this grinchy when the sun's out.