we had a complicated childhood

[lotesse]

I had a thought!

Or rather, rubynye had a thought here, and I liked it and am stealing it. So. The reason why I, as a twenty-one year old girl, like to read stories about young people's sexuality is that I was a teenager not too long ago, and in that time my sexuality was frankly much brighter than it is now. At thirteen it was all fannish and id-driven and had an odd sort of purity, and then at sixteen it was first love and firstyness all around. Things are more complex now - especially the iud nightmare I'm currently booked aboard - and I love revisiting those epiphanies and shivers.

Even going back to being eleven, when my neighbor and I were kind of maybe in love, and we played at resusitation in the pool as an excuse for poorly-executed kisses. My memories from that time are all sort of rosy and happy and breathless. I loved it then, and love recalling it now. Young characters are a vehicle for me to express and write down and preserve those emotions and experiences, or to theorize about the ones I didn't have but could've.

...now that I write it all out, it seems obvious, and I actually feel like I said almost everything in one of my very first posts on this eljay, Sex and Kiddie Lit, and I don't know why it took me so long to put things together.

Finally, a rec: musesfool's incredible, incredibly hot Miss Winchester's Unsuitable Suitor. Wincest genderswap Recency au, Dean as a highwayman, and inappropriate incestuous hijinks at a masquerade that Sammy attends as Artemis. Jesus god, is this fic hot, And satisfying... oh lord.

(still no sign of my cat)

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I'm not as close to being a kid or even a teenager as you are, but you've definitely hit the nail on the head for me, too. Whenever I write about teens or kids (or hell, even college students), it's all tinged with nostalgia (especially if I'm writing about them in the time period I grew up in, which, seeing as how most of the guys I like to write teen!AUs about are around my age, is fairly often). Sexuality is big part of growing up, and it's not something I'm going to not write about just because I'm no longer that age.