boring navel gazing and a meme
May. 15th, 2006 01:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lotesseI'm pulling myself together again.
I don't do well when I'm not engaged. Right now I've got two weeks till the end of term, and I'm mentally and creatively burned out. That's a problem for me, because the things that I do with my free time tend to be pretty much academic in their nature, and I can get pretty stuck when I don't want to think. What I really need is socialization, but everyone else is busy with end-of-term stuff and has no time for me. That's my own fault--I worked ahead and got done too early. But hey.
The other problem with all this is that I withdraw when I'm being depressive. I don't want to deal with people, I can't stand social situations. I will consciously avoid human contact. And that all makes it just that much worse.
I've been in a four or five-day sulk, not leaving my room more than I have to and reading brainless fic and just waiting for the hours to go by. But no more. I'm done. If I finish with the schoolwork that I have, I'll make assignments for myself. Also, no more junk food. I'm awfully bad about eating when I'm low. Jumping back on the healthfood bandwagon here.
I just went for a walk and cleaned my room and burned some herbs and took a long hot shower with my wonderful magic soap (Dr. Bronner's Peppermint) and I can do this. I'm going to remember how to be happy and engage myself, dammit.
/self-involved and boring navel gazing
Meme:
take the WHAT BAD BOOK ARE YOU test.
and go to mewing.net. not as good as reading a good book, but way better than a bad one.
Beowulf yay.
I don't do well when I'm not engaged. Right now I've got two weeks till the end of term, and I'm mentally and creatively burned out. That's a problem for me, because the things that I do with my free time tend to be pretty much academic in their nature, and I can get pretty stuck when I don't want to think. What I really need is socialization, but everyone else is busy with end-of-term stuff and has no time for me. That's my own fault--I worked ahead and got done too early. But hey.
The other problem with all this is that I withdraw when I'm being depressive. I don't want to deal with people, I can't stand social situations. I will consciously avoid human contact. And that all makes it just that much worse.
I've been in a four or five-day sulk, not leaving my room more than I have to and reading brainless fic and just waiting for the hours to go by. But no more. I'm done. If I finish with the schoolwork that I have, I'll make assignments for myself. Also, no more junk food. I'm awfully bad about eating when I'm low. Jumping back on the healthfood bandwagon here.
I just went for a walk and cleaned my room and burned some herbs and took a long hot shower with my wonderful magic soap (Dr. Bronner's Peppermint) and I can do this. I'm going to remember how to be happy and engage myself, dammit.
/self-involved and boring navel gazing
Meme:
take the WHAT BAD BOOK ARE YOU test.
and go to mewing.net. not as good as reading a good book, but way better than a bad one.
Beowulf yay.