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Name me a character from a fandom I have known, and I will tell you:

* How I FEEEEEL about this character
* All the people I ship romantically with this character
* My non-romantic OTP for this character
* My unpopular opinion about this character
* One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon

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(to talk about St. John I have to talk about Rochester as well - in my head they work as a structure)

* I really, REALLY don't like St. John, but immediately on the heels of that negative feeling comes an awareness that I'm being unfair, irrational and weird - because I ADORE Rochester, and am willing to make all sorts of excuses for him, and I know rationally that St. John isn't a worse man, really. But he just sets me off! St. John withholds love, which is a cardinal sin in my books.

* St. John Rivers should not have sex. At least until he can stop thinking that strength and lovability are opposite things. I could read him as queer, I guess, but who on earth could you slash him with?!

* On the other hand, I do love his relationship with his sisters; he's shown to his best advantage in Moor House. Part of why I want him removed from sex for a while!

* Does Jane Eyre fandom have a mainstream? Not sure how to answer this!

* I do sort of want the one where St. John gets the fuck over it, and removes the stick from his ass, and can marry Rosamond Oliver. But there's also something deeply gorgeous in the flawed imperfection of his canonical ending, wherein he's both transcendentally wise and fundamentally stupid at once.