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I heard an interview on npr last night with Hans Zimmer, who's doing the score for The DaVinci Code. The universe is conspiring to make me interested in this movie.

It's a horrid, horrid book. Brown is a dreadful stylist and not oo good with the characters either. (Excellent takedown of the earliest bits of leaden prose here.)

But but but...Ian McKellan and Paul Bettany and Zimmer sounded so coherent and interesting. And the music--or the few samples that I heard--was genuinely lovely in a sort of Palestrina-style way, and I'm a sucker for Palestrina. I am excited for this movie. Dear god, why do I have to be excited for this movie? The premise is so utterly silly.

I'm still really just seeing it for Ian.

boring navel gazing and a meme

I'm pulling myself together again.

I don't do well when I'm not engaged. Right now I've got two weeks till the end of term, and I'm mentally and creatively burned out. That's a problem for me, because the things that I do with my free time tend to be pretty much academic in their nature, and I can get pretty stuck when I don't want to think. What I really need is socialization, but everyone else is busy with end-of-term stuff and has no time for me. That's my own fault--I worked ahead and got done too early. But hey.

The other problem with all this is that I withdraw when I'm being depressive. I don't want to deal with people, I can't stand social situations. I will consciously avoid human contact. And that all makes it just that much worse.

I've been in a four or five-day sulk, not leaving my room more than I have to and reading brainless fic and just waiting for the hours to go by. But no more. I'm done. If I finish with the schoolwork that I have, I'll make assignments for myself. Also, no more junk food. I'm awfully bad about eating when I'm low. Jumping back on the healthfood bandwagon here.

I just went for a walk and cleaned my room and burned some herbs and took a long hot shower with my wonderful magic soap (Dr. Bronner's Peppermint) and I can do this. I'm going to remember how to be happy and engage myself, dammit.

/self-involved and boring navel gazing

Meme:





take the WHAT BAD BOOK ARE YOU test.


and go to mewing.net. not as good as reading a good book, but way better than a bad one.


Beowulf yay.

mememememe

Tagged by emei, here's how it goes: Explain the name you've chosen for your LJ. When finished, tag the same number of people as there are letters in your name, so that they will have to explain themselves as well.

I started using "Lotesse" back on the www.theonering.com messageboards when I was, what? twelve? Something like that. One of my favorite names in LotR was, at the time, Lothiriel. She's a bit character, the princess of Dol Amroth who, I think, ends up marrying Eomer. But that name was taken, so I tried switching it to the other Elvish language. "Lothiriel" means "flower-maid" in Sindarin, but I didn't like how it sounded when translated into Quenya. I stumbled on "Lotesse", which in Quenya means "in flower" and is the name of the fifth month of the year. I liked the sound of it, it was close to Lothiriel, and my birthday is in May. And it was available. So I went with that.

Someone else had "Lotesse" when I went for my eljay, so I played around with it and got "lotesseflower." I like how that looks on the screen, and the English bit is sort of a translation of the Elvish part. They just felt like they went together. And lo, so has it been these many years.

I'm not tagging, because there are too damn many letters in my name, but everyone should play along on this one. It's fun finding out why people name themselves what they do.