thought I'd been through this in 1919
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lotesseTarot just laid some shit on me - I'm all shaky over.
All cards upright, 4/6 major arcana.
Past=Death. This one was a relief - I think it means I'm moving on from my losses and those feelings. The old thing is, really and truly, over, and now I can start something new.
Present=seven of cups. A warning: do not be silly or sentimental in decision-making, watch out for illusions and acts of self-deception, make sure the work will not be wasted. (am I doing those things? or is this a warning to be applied now, in the present, as I make decisions about the future?)
Near future= The Hermit. The solitary work that is spiritually pure, material deprivation, soul-searching. This feels more like my present, really - this is what I am and have been doing, what I will continue to do for at least the next few weeks. The change is not now.
Further influences= The High Priestess. Together with the Hermit, this seems to me an indicator of best direction: I am strongest when I work like a witch, in my own way, with my own power. I should not cut myself off from my strangeness; I need that in order to achieve. Achievement is possible for me.
Ultimate influences=six of coins. Success and material benefit - at some point, one of these irons I've got in the fire is going to work out for me financially. I don't need to be too afraid, at a base level, of poverty and deprivation. I'm broke now, but I'm skilled, degreed, and have my fingers in half a dozen pies at this point. I need to be patient, stay on top of things, there is a strong chance of them improving as a result.
ultimate position=The Chariot. This one kind of frightens me - the Charioteer is struggling to control two powerful forces, it's a card about riding the whirlwind. Getting your full power underneath you in a way that is so wild as to be dangerous. Also deals w/ill-fatedness - it's interesting, I've been reading Sirius-centric HP fic this week, and Sirius' story is one of the anchors I use to understand and remember this card's meaning. If you can get the power under you you can do anything; but it's always working to unseat you, and then you're lost. (relevant: my tendency to binary thinking, my vibration between alternate ideals and temperament configurations, Taurus/Gemini, INFP/INTP, goals relating to service v. solitude)
A Tangent on Sirius Black, my personal relationship therewith: I freaked myself out yesterday when I had the thought that, although I feel a lot of emotional kinship right now with Sirius, in re the being sort of forcibly stopped as a young person and then emerging 10+ years later as a traumatized, depleted, and weirdly-immature adult, when I first fell for him as a character that would not have been the case. He's always been my favorite, but for a good three years there we didn't have much in common. Then I started seeing my Ex. *shudder*
All cards upright, 4/6 major arcana.
Past=Death. This one was a relief - I think it means I'm moving on from my losses and those feelings. The old thing is, really and truly, over, and now I can start something new.
Present=seven of cups. A warning: do not be silly or sentimental in decision-making, watch out for illusions and acts of self-deception, make sure the work will not be wasted. (am I doing those things? or is this a warning to be applied now, in the present, as I make decisions about the future?)
Near future= The Hermit. The solitary work that is spiritually pure, material deprivation, soul-searching. This feels more like my present, really - this is what I am and have been doing, what I will continue to do for at least the next few weeks. The change is not now.
Further influences= The High Priestess. Together with the Hermit, this seems to me an indicator of best direction: I am strongest when I work like a witch, in my own way, with my own power. I should not cut myself off from my strangeness; I need that in order to achieve. Achievement is possible for me.
Ultimate influences=six of coins. Success and material benefit - at some point, one of these irons I've got in the fire is going to work out for me financially. I don't need to be too afraid, at a base level, of poverty and deprivation. I'm broke now, but I'm skilled, degreed, and have my fingers in half a dozen pies at this point. I need to be patient, stay on top of things, there is a strong chance of them improving as a result.
ultimate position=The Chariot. This one kind of frightens me - the Charioteer is struggling to control two powerful forces, it's a card about riding the whirlwind. Getting your full power underneath you in a way that is so wild as to be dangerous. Also deals w/ill-fatedness - it's interesting, I've been reading Sirius-centric HP fic this week, and Sirius' story is one of the anchors I use to understand and remember this card's meaning. If you can get the power under you you can do anything; but it's always working to unseat you, and then you're lost. (relevant: my tendency to binary thinking, my vibration between alternate ideals and temperament configurations, Taurus/Gemini, INFP/INTP, goals relating to service v. solitude)
A Tangent on Sirius Black, my personal relationship therewith: I freaked myself out yesterday when I had the thought that, although I feel a lot of emotional kinship right now with Sirius, in re the being sort of forcibly stopped as a young person and then emerging 10+ years later as a traumatized, depleted, and weirdly-immature adult, when I first fell for him as a character that would not have been the case. He's always been my favorite, but for a good three years there we didn't have much in common. Then I started seeing my Ex. *shudder*
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Date: 2015-11-11 03:06 am (UTC)