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He also had huge amounts of respect and admiration for his mother, even as a boy, and I think you can see it in his general respect for older women. Have you read Humphrey Carpenter's bio? It's striking how significant these powerful older women are to his young life - his mother in his childhood, raising her sons alone without the support of their extended family because of her faith, and then he meets Edith when he's sixteen and she's nineteen and she's this talented older musician that he pines over steadfastly for years.