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[lotesse]

In just a few minutes, I'm off to the first orientation/ meet and greet of my graduate program. And I still kind of can't believe that this is happening.

I agonized so much, last year, the year before, about getting into school. I didn't go home for Christmas, and filled out applications instead. I was so afraid, and so miserable - and I was so thrown last year, when my first round of applications didn't get me in anywhere. I know that the first real rejection had to come some time, but it was a blow, one that I think I'm still recovering from.

The uni I'm starting at this week rejected me, that first time. It's funny the way things go.

But I'm so glad to be in a program, so glad to be in this program - mainly, glad to be safe in an institution with a place laid by for me for at least the next six years. The outside world was starting to get awfully close, and it's scary out there. I'm so grateful that the thing that I happen to be good at has so much infrastructure already set up for those of us who want to get in - otherwise, I don't know what I'd do.

Here goes nothing. Second star to the right, and then straight on till morning.

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[slashfairy]

Exactly. exactly, exactly.

And don't forget: "If growing up/means it would be/beneath my dignity/to climb a tree/I won't grow up/won't grow up/never grow u-up/not me."

[lotesse]

And if it means I must prepare/To shoulder burdens with a worried air,/I'll never grow up, never grow up, never grow up/not me :)

[anthimeria]

Heyla!

Hope you had a good time, and are excited about the new chapter in your life.