a little shy and sad of eye

jeeeesus I do not recommend trying to pay for a move and a car and a traffic collision and new glasses in the same month. just about hyperventilated a moment there as I was doing my math up; I think I'm going to just squeak by until I get paid on Friday - but only just, and only because I'm paying my ridonk power bill for last month in installments. I'm trying to convince myself that it'll be okay, I haven't failed in managing my money I've just had kind of a clusterfuck the last month & there have been lots of unforseen and major expenses. I've got a couple hundred bucks' worth of writing lined up for the next week, & really if I didn't get paid monthly I wouldn't be in nearly as much of a pinch - but oh how I loathe the feeling, even the essentially false feeling, of financial insecurity.