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we had a complicated childhood
Aug. 26th, 2007 10:52 pmI had a thought!
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rubynye had a thought here, and I liked it and am stealing it. So. The reason why I, as a twenty-one year old girl, like to read stories about young people's sexuality is that I was a teenager not too long ago, and in that time my sexuality was frankly much brighter than it is now. At thirteen it was all fannish and id-driven and had an odd sort of purity, and then at sixteen it was first love and firstyness all around. Things are more complex now - especially the iud nightmare I'm currently booked aboard - and I love revisiting those epiphanies and shivers.
Even going back to being eleven, when my neighbor and I were kind of maybe in love, and we played at resusitation in the pool as an excuse for poorly-executed kisses. My memories from that time are all sort of rosy and happy and breathless. I loved it then, and love recalling it now. Young characters are a vehicle for me to express and write down and preserve those emotions and experiences, or to theorize about the ones I didn't have but could've.
...now that I write it all out, it seems obvious, and I actually feel like I said almost everything in one of my very first posts on this eljay, Sex and Kiddie Lit, and I don't know why it took me so long to put things together.
Finally, a rec:musesfool's incredible, incredibly hot Miss Winchester's Unsuitable Suitor. Wincest genderswap Recency au, Dean as a highwayman, and inappropriate incestuous hijinks at a masquerade that Sammy attends as Artemis. Jesus god, is this fic hot, And satisfying... oh lord.
(still no sign of my cat)
Or rather,
rubynye had a thought here, and I liked it and am stealing it. So. The reason why I, as a twenty-one year old girl, like to read stories about young people's sexuality is that I was a teenager not too long ago, and in that time my sexuality was frankly much brighter than it is now. At thirteen it was all fannish and id-driven and had an odd sort of purity, and then at sixteen it was first love and firstyness all around. Things are more complex now - especially the iud nightmare I'm currently booked aboard - and I love revisiting those epiphanies and shivers.Even going back to being eleven, when my neighbor and I were kind of maybe in love, and we played at resusitation in the pool as an excuse for poorly-executed kisses. My memories from that time are all sort of rosy and happy and breathless. I loved it then, and love recalling it now. Young characters are a vehicle for me to express and write down and preserve those emotions and experiences, or to theorize about the ones I didn't have but could've.
...now that I write it all out, it seems obvious, and I actually feel like I said almost everything in one of my very first posts on this eljay, Sex and Kiddie Lit, and I don't know why it took me so long to put things together.
Finally, a rec:
musesfool's incredible, incredibly hot Miss Winchester's Unsuitable Suitor. Wincest genderswap Recency au, Dean as a highwayman, and inappropriate incestuous hijinks at a masquerade that Sammy attends as Artemis. Jesus god, is this fic hot, And satisfying... oh lord.(still no sign of my cat)