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2017-03-23 12:13 pm
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In 2003, it felt like I was screaming into a void: it was obvious, even to me at the time, and I was still in high school, that the Iraq war was bogus profiteering, but the "grown ups" at the NYT and in the world at large were infuriatingly resistant to seeing that reality. There was a hopelessness: nobody was listening.

Now, in 2017, 2 months after the inauguration of the Orange Man, people are starting to listen, and I am strangling on my own rage. I'd thought it would have felt vindicating -- but instead, I don't know how to speak civilly with people who are only now, when it is too late, becoming interested in looking toward the truth.

The absence of HRC from the conversation is a hole, a wound. Vladimir Putin attempted to destroy our republic because he was afraid of her, and wanted to punish her, and apparently enough of us shared those feelings that they were able to take her down.
lotesse: (freedom)
2017-02-25 02:30 pm
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I don't how how much of this is about being re-het-partnered, how much of it is about cumulative frustration with living around my parents' vague "leftist" anti-feminism for the last few years, and how much of it is the continued fucking wound of how the country was too goddamn sexist to elect the most capable fucking leader we've ever had a chance at, pretty much -- but my feminism's got kind of a hysterical edge to it these days, I gotta tell you. Truth coming out of her well to shame mankind - style. This bubbling well of explosive anger and alienation, like it hasn't been since I was a teenager. I've been the suzy sunshine voice in my friend group in re: the chance of the Trump admin being taken down without the world ending, but I think the unvoiced pain of her non-election -- not just the fear for the world, but the bludgeoning feeling of watching an exceptionally qualified woman be ground beneath the wheel of public sexism before your eyes -- is starting to be a problem for me. But I don't know what to do with it -- the allies I have available to me are not necessarily sympathetic to that particular trauma, and, pragmatically, it feels necessary to swallow my feminist rage and work with my daddy in resistance against Trump. It's not that I'm unwilling to do what's required of me -- it's just that I notice it's warping something in me, a little bit, pulling askew
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2017-02-24 04:43 pm
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anti-Trump ritual: personal mod

modified anti-Trump banishing ritual, to be done at midnight EST on the waning moon: Feb 24, March 26, April 24, May 23, ect.

-bowl of witch hazel and water
-bowl of blessed thistle and soil
-bowl with a feather and incense dust
-lit white candle
-candle dyed orange with cinnamon and turmeric, inscribed with his name
-Tower tarot card

ritual:

earth, air, fire, water
And spirits of the ancestors

I call upon you
To bind
Donald J. Trump
So that his malignant works may fail utterly
That he may do no harm

To any human soul
Nor any tree
Animal
Rock
Stream
or Sea

Bind him so that he shall not break our polity
Usurp our liberty
Or fill our minds with hate, confusion, fear, or despair
And bind, too,
All those who enable his wickedness
And those whose mouths speak his poisonous lies

bind all of them
As with chains of iron
Bind their malicious tongues
Strike down their towers of vanity

(invert Tower tarot card beneath the orange candle)

in my name

In the name of all who walk
Crawl, swim, or fly
Of all the trees, the forests,
Streams, deserts,
Rivers and seas
In the name of Justice
And Liberty
And Love

And Equality
And Peace

Bind their tongues
Bind their works
Bind their wickedness
Bind them in chains

So mote it be! So mote it be! So mote it be!
You're FIRED!
lotesse: (afrofuturist)
2016-11-10 12:43 pm
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I do believe that the Democratic Party is strong and healthy. Our leadership are good and competent, we've successfully moved our platform left over the last decade, we're espousing the right values. We have a strong organization, and a strong sense of unity. I contend that it is an error, now, to start tearing ourselves up looking for the thing that we did wrong. I think we did most things right. We are going to have to adjust now to a new landscape, and it is not time for the SJ and economic leftists to squabble; if we'd won, maybe, but we didn't and now everyone is needed.

I don't think we'd be papering over anything really important. Some things were less than perfect, but they are completely overshadowed by the international movement toward conservative white nationalism that has been growing in the world and that has now taken root here. Our only significant fault, I contend, was goodwill and compassion toward our enemy, who seemed weakened and sad, but who is apparently still strong enough to be a dangerous threat. I do believe this.

I believe that Hillary Clinton was a good candidate, that it was overall a good primary and a good general, that we fought well and cleverly. We did not prevail, but I do not think that we should abandon the course. This is a time for tenacity, not transformation. We already are the ones we need, we just need to keep working, keep listening, and protect the vulnerable among us as much as we can from what's to come.
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2016-11-10 09:46 am
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Dear Secretary Clinton,

this isn't the letter that I thought I'd be writing you today. But I wanted to write you anyway, because your run was historic and important even without a victory at the end, and I want to honor that even as I start to brace for what may be coming.

It meant so much to me, getting to vote for you. I'm 30 years old, and I was a little girl when you were the First Lady - and, along with my mother, you were one of my models for what a woman could be and do, and for how much a woman could do to change the world. And yes, watching you fight against the forces of cultural conservatism back then was one of my first lessons in sexism, as I began to understand exactly how much resistance powerful women could expect to face as they did their work. Those forces won a battle last night, but they won't win the war - the arc of the universe will bend our way, I know it, if we continue to work hard and uphold the faith.

The women who won us our right to vote faced uncounted setbacks, up to and including violent attacks on their persons, and yet they were victorious in the end. The women of the 1980s and 90s, who fought for the right to wear pants in the workplace and to outlaw sexual harassment faced both losses and victories. So shall we do. One of the little girls who saw you running your exemplary, intelligent, organized, high-minded campaign will be inspired - or one of the little girls who saw you working as First Lady in just the same way - and will try again. Maybe the world will be ready for us by then. I'm sorry, terribly sorry, that it wasn't you, because you would have been brilliant. But our day will come.

Your legacy of decades of tireless work on behalf of women and children stands. Everything you gave us - the hope, the solidarity, the brief shining moment of a utopian vision of a better future where "Madame President" would have been a common utterance - stands. I cast two votes for you, in the primary and in the election, while wearing suffragette white, and no one can take that away from me. Madame Secretary, we have already made history.

Thank You. And I don't accept your apology, because I don't believe you did a single thing wrong.
lotesse: (freedom)
2016-11-09 11:17 am
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well friends, it looks like we're going to have to take care of each other for a while here. my plan for the day is to do some work, write a letter to HRC telling her that I'm still so thankful for her service and her work, telling her how much it meant for me to be able to vote for a woman for highest office even with this unforseen unfortunate result - and then to start brushing up on the history of the women's underground pre-Roe, because I think we're going to need to set some of that up again pronto, in this brief window when we can still access resources and free avenues of communication.

also I want to figure out how to max my insurance benefits for the next few months, because I don't think this deal is gonna be there for me again for a while. As much dentistry as I can get done, for sure. How many more psych appts do I have fully covered? Gyno exam? I'm not on any long-term meds, so that's not a concern for me, but. I want to hoard up at least one dose of RU-486, but don't know if that's a feasible thing to do.

We don't yet know where the battle lines are going to be drawn; but we're back in the war and no question. I am so heavy with sadness for the people who it's not going to be possible to protect from the consequences of this, but I am also filled with grim determination to salvage whatever can be.
lotesse: (freedom)
2016-10-12 05:51 pm
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Open trade and open borders

I'm trying to see if my understanding of the linkage of these two concepts as it currently stands in the US and the EU is accurate -- any corrections or further thoughts would be super welcome!

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lotesse: (ham)
2016-07-22 09:13 pm
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I'm sorry I just really fucking hate wikileaks
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2016-06-24 11:59 am
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A very strange day to be writing about William Morris.
lotesse: (afrofuturist)
2016-06-23 11:51 pm
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Politics fandom had at least three season finales running at once today, I stg. Kudos to John Lewis for effectively leveraging the new technology and the old (streaming and social media plus CRM protest tactics); sympathies to families thrown into uncertainty by the threat to DAPA/DACA and also by (what the hell) the apparently-impending Brexit; best wishes to Scotland for that reviving independence movement, and do have fun with Donald Trump while he's visiting, I hear he has really great golf courses, the best, most beautiful golf courses.
lotesse: (glamazon)
2016-04-07 12:30 am
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my heart had leapt. my cheeks had burnt. I had flushed with anger.

Listening to Bernie Sanders calling Hillary Clinton "unqualified" to be President is - like absorbing a body blow. Wow. How many times - how many men - to me, personally, to my face, like this is to hers -

I'm reminded of Twisty Faster's old IBTP tag, "men hate you."
lotesse: (freedom)
2016-03-28 09:58 am
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In re: US Dem primary politics -

look, I'd like to reform campaign finance every bit as much as the next girl - but through policy changes that hold everyone accountable, for fuck's sake, not through weird purity-politics critiques of successful current left fundraising tactics!
lotesse: (freedom)
2016-01-20 12:28 am
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A Reason Why I Am Not Happy With Bernie Sanders Today:

Planned Parenthood is not "the establishment," and you can't pass off not getting their endorsement as "mainstream doesn;t get it." PP's proven value to progressive causes weighs more than any political candidacy, sorry. You're not going to get anywhere with the feminist left by dissing on PP neither.
lotesse: (starwars)
2016-01-15 02:13 am
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let's go to the beach

If Donald Trump's weird campaign song is, in fact, the work of the person responsible for Rebecca Black's "Friday," Milly's excellent 2011 Club Vivid Brazil vid set to the aforementioned becomes even more fantastically layered and hilarious
lotesse: (freedom)
2015-11-07 01:32 am
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So - I badly want to be more enchanted by Bernie Sanders than I am. And I'm not sure how legitimate "enchantment" even is, politically speaking, but noticing affective responses is kind of what I do.

I watched the Maddow-moderated Presidential Candidates' Forum tonight kind of backwards, Clinton first and then O'Malley and Sanders. Read more... )
lotesse: (starwars)
2015-11-06 10:57 am
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Man, each time I read Ben Carson's "as a teenager, I would go after people with rocks, and bricks, and baseball bats, and hammers" line, it comes out more and more like a Python sketch. "The Pirhana Brothers Take the Presidency."

"Vince: After that I used to go round his flat every Sunday lunchtime to apologize and we'd shake hands and then he'd nail my head to the floor.

Interviewer: Every Sunday?

Vince: Yeah but he was very reasonable. Once, one Sunday, when my parents were coming round for tea I asked him if he'd mind very much not nailing my head to the floor that week and he agreed and just screwed my pelvis to a cake stand."
lotesse: (freedom)
2015-02-20 11:30 pm
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let the serpent into the mansion

soooo, is this Republican "hold Homeland Security hostage in order to prevent immigration reform" another incarnation of the NYPD "slowdown" farce? am I missing something, or is shutting down the Dept of Homeland Security a total non-problem? the opposite, in fact, of a problem?

is our long post-9/11 security-theater-and-fascism nightmare at last coming to an end, done in by a right wing that doesn't seem to understand the definition of irony?
lotesse: (freedom)
2014-11-05 02:36 pm
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what you didn't count on was another mother of a mother revolution

I give less of a shit about yesterday's election than I ever have. I don't even feel particularly down about the results today, even though they're pretty ugh.

tbh I'm pretty sure it's a result of Democrat establishment silence on Ferguson/StL. I've always been a progressive, not a Democrat, but their failure to step up really hammered in the wedge.
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2014-09-16 07:48 pm
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rover rover see him see him, rover rover catch him catch him

so I'm kind of freaked about it, but I want to try and go down to Ferguson, MO for the mass mobilization in early October. I've felt so upset and so powerless this last month and a half, and I really want something to DO, some way to be heard. But I've also never done anything like this, and I've been feeling really mentally unwell for a good while now, and I'll admit the idea of going in to the scenes we've seen there scares me to bits. But the powerlessness def. isn't helping with the feeling mentally unwell, and I feel like, if folk don't keep the noise up on this one, justice en't coming. I'm reaching out to rl people, both here and at various academic institutions, to see if anyone wants to ride with me; my undergrad is only about three hrs drive from Ferguson, so something might come of that.

Do y'all have any advice, or experiences that you think would be good for me to hear about? How do I take action and still care for myself?
lotesse: (freedom)
2014-08-14 12:52 am
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lynch law

I am sick with horror at events in Ferguson, Missouri, because once again white pride has trumped the right of black children to exist. I am sick with terror at events in Ferguson, Missouri, because this is the creep of violent fascism in action, and we should fucking all be afraid.

And I feel sick with grief, too. That poor beautiful little boy.